Do you think it's important to be funny about everything?
If it wasn't for humor, I have no idea where the hell I would be, besides music. However, I am sensitive although people perceive me as this strong/rough person. Yeah I guess I am but at the same time the things that really matter to me really put me down. All of a sudden, I get this sense of humor and I feel so uplifted at the moment and just wish this could be 24/7. I feel like regardless what just happened, whether it was a loss or I just incredibly embarrassed myself, that sense of humor makes me care less about the situation and not make it as big of a deal. Either it wasn't a big deal in the first place or you just turned it down a notch, it feels great to be able to move on and not care so much. You save a lot of energy and emotions for another time. But like I said, I wish I can get that sense of humor every time something bad happens. For example, I just got an internship and its at one of the top companies. Very grateful, I mean I can't believe it. It's something related to what I want to do but I am already feeling very intimidated (such an understatement) and preparing myself for disappointment. I haven't had a job in a while and when I did, I didn't do much. Plus at school, I wasn't involved. So all of that on top of me being slow makes me want to quit. But I know better, it's just I know I'm going to make a fool out of myself in probably the easiest tasks. I get it its an internship and you're there to learn but realistically, you should know what you're doing especially with simple tasks. I'm going to look like a lost puppy. I know all the right things to do but i feel like I'll look like a noob or a kiss-ass. My future depends on this so so far, I can't really get tht sense of humor going. I wanna be able to make fun of myself so I don't make the situation worst. But will that just look like I'm not taking it serious? or am I just delusional? I believe its my only way to survive these next few months.