Do you think i am pushing my boyfriend away?

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ok so here the deal this boy and i grew up with each other we were the bestest of friends. We ended up falling in love but i feel like i am pushing him away.. i really love this boy he like mi familia.. he holds my heart ... but i wont get to close to him because i have constantly had my hart broken and i am tired of all the tears.. and i am also scared becausee with n these last 7 months i have lost 3 people that were really really close to me.... and i am scared something will happen to him if i get close to were i want to be comitted now...[me and him are so so so so so so close right now] i have accused him of cheating about 30 times.. urggg i love this boy and i am really trying to go back to the girl i was... i told my boyfriend that i am also scared to get close to him because every guy i have ever dated has tried killing me for trying to leave them, or has stalked me until this day, or is tryin to kill me, or is begging for me back, or has killed themselfs, or beats me. and i dont want anymore of it to happen i never fell in love with any of those boys except for like 2.. he is a great guy ... but i really dont want to push him away because then i know i will be losing something good.. urg i love him and am scared to lose him, he says i am not going to and he understands but my mind keeps telling me to block his words out.. he has done some things to make me not really trust him but not recently and yet i still dont trust him snd we have been together a long time... well anyways i need help! how do you drop the past and look at the future? someone tell me por'favor because i am totally confused

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  • CountryRoads
    13 years ago

    Sounds like you're just not ready. It's fine to stay friends. You can be intimate without actually BEING intimate. Hang out and stay close, and if he knows what your situation is like, he'll be understanding. When you're ready you won't be putting up these walls.

    But try to rein in your crazy cheating accusations, that doesn't help.

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  • asdfghjklneedhelp
    12 years ago

    If he was a real friend, you won't lose him. Trust me, dear. Just believe in your boyfriend. And TELL HIM that you count on him, so if even THINKS about hurting you, he'll regret every single second. And you'll know that he does. And HE will be the one who is hurt, hurt by his own SELF. Dear, I hope this helps. (:

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  • SXGJINDO
    13 years ago

    I agree with CountryRoads. You should take it slow and afer all you guys are friends. If you absolutley cant then you have known him forever, dont you know if he is the type to cheat? I hope this helped :)

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  • one_guy
    13 years ago

    Sounds like you get into a lot of drama and you tend to cause drama indirectly and directly. And please stop with this stupid slang eg: porfas. Not that you stated it just an example. Same with mixing English with Spanish words.

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