Do you think i am depressed
I don't consider myself depressed since i never went to a doctor to diagnose me, i don't know if i should go or am i just over-reacting.
I started to dislike myself more than 5 years ago i convinced myself that everything is my fault so i won't be angry at anyone else, i started to wish i was never born i don't deserve what i get i am a berden to my parents etc. Ene tho i have a prefect family At first i was conscious about these feeling but now it's like they are things that i believe but i don't think about them much. I have been avoidig my problems for too long that it's hard to even process it now. All i feel is sad and afraid to do the things that i want/can do because it's not gonna be perfect. I am afraid of faliure that i do nothing like even watching a new series is to much commitmnet for me,i want to stop talking to my friends cause what if i am a bad person and because it's a commitment too what if they need me and i don't have the energy to be there for them.
Also the sadness doesn't last weeks maybe a couple days i would sleep alot dreed waking up want to be aloneand don't like to eat or do a thing at most (i heard you are depressed if you are sad for2 weeks?) i am usually someone who laughs alot. But i know i am not happy with my life .
Sorry that was too long