Do you feel like you cant get it together?

porn is as addicting as chocolate.

Hey man I felt the exact same way in pretty much everything that you just said once!! you dont have to fell shitty just because your doing some screwed up stuff. trust me ive had to get over this one myself. Its normall at this time in life to fell like everything is not right. Just try to concentrate and consider this. Faith. you may call me a religious dick, but honestly thought the same thing when I was in your situation. Just try going to a Christian church. It just makes you feel so good about yourself and you will find motivation to do the very best you can on all of your exams. Do your very best, pray thats its blessed, let God do the rest. Dont just ignore this. I promise you that if you just look into it, it will be worth it. Its nothing super religious and you dont have to work your way into heaven. All we have to do is just accept Jesus into our hearts. But dont take from me, just please look into it. I promise you will thank me for this. Just try. Thats all that it takes. Just try. God is on your side. He has given you a gift, now all youhave to do is open it. Please just try.

We all have problems, and the funny thing is... they show up in the most important times of our life... not really... ALL of our life is important... don't feel like a failure! if that might crash down, there are still plenty of choices to move on, you are young... but the big advice here is: Destiny puts lotsa crap on our path... we have to find a way to evade it... that's what life is about... crappy, don't you think? :1

It's normal. It's also normal to eventually get passed it.

If you're at school, you may have a dr or councellor you can see for free on campus. (colleges, university's, and live on campus private schools should have this). See if you can go in and talk to them, or a councellor. Having someone who is trained to listen can be invaluable. If they're remotely qualified they won't be shocked by anything you can say, your talks will be kept confidential, and you don't have to feel like you're burdening them because they're trained to leave work at work. Often just talking it out with someone who isn't going to judge you can be very liberating. It won't fix things immediately, but over a few meetings it can really help. Also, these people are trained to spot things like ADD, chronic depression etc, and help you deal with these situations if you want.

Chances are you're a perfectly normal and average person going through a hard time. It won't pass on it's own, but you can get passed it.

First of all I think it's good that you see the world as an amazing place, when it seems like everything is lost and out of control at least you have that to hold on to and keep you going. Secondly you really do need to stop looking at the porn, it's an unhealthy addiction and can really mess up your head and bring you down, just like some drugs do. That is how I have been able to control my porn habit is by looking at it as a drug that is doing harm to my body and mind, and I always have to remind myself that I am better than that.

Aaaah...

*hug* :( You're just growing up faster than me...

Im probably your age and seriously, jacking off is normal. Maybe it's just the free time you've got... occupy yourself?

Sorry to hear about your parents, but if you stay positive, uptight - with a straight-backed-mature approach, I can assure you; everything's going to be just fine.

Right now, maybe focus on what you've got going for you at school, it's something you can count on!

Good Luck!

You are not alone. It sounds to me like you should investigate whether you have adult ADD. I myself (former Air Force as well) have struggled with the very same issues you're facing and have only just discovered that the root cause of all my problems over the years has been undiagnosed Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD). ADD is not just something hyperactive kids have, it's an adult problem as well. I was diagnosed with depression and suffered from addictive behaviors for years, both symptoms of ADD. I would research taking some type of online test and check out 2 books called "Driven to Distraction" and "What, You Mean I'm Not Lazy, Stupid, or Crazy?!" Both of these books changed my life. There is help if you are in-fact diagnosed with ADD.

I know the feeling. After four years in the Air Force I am now back in college. The first year back I was busting my ass and moving with a purpose. Now its like I'm in a vacuum. In the AF there were things that had to be done people constantly looking over my shoulder to insure that it got done. If I didn't do my job right bad things would happen. Now, its like I'm in a vacuum (its odd to be hating this now, I couldn't Fing stand all the micromanagement when I was in.) It doesn't matter if I study or not, bust my ass or not, do well or fail. I tell people I'm in school and it suddenly doesn't matter if I'm just being a bum. I cant tell if this whole school thing is worth while or if I'm just wasting my time. I'm half expecting to get yelled at and told to go find a job. I've had to drop most of my classes this semester and don't know if I should work or do summer school this summer. Should I switch majors, blah blah blah. Thing is, all I really need to worry about are these last few tests and then I can worry about all that other crap. So I unplug the computer get out of the house and try to do something, anything. Just to get some sense of accomplishment and purpose, so I can focus on the seemingly point act of studying.
The way to avoid just sitting on ass and watching the porn go by is to get up and do something. Even if it isn't studying. And if you fail a few classes, retake them and press on. Just cowboy up and get through these exams. Think of ways to use this summer to clear your head to stay motivated. Unplug the computer for a day or two (its surprisinly liberating to not have email or internet for a while.)

The strsses of life. Or maybe minor depression or something. Things are probably overwhelming at this point in your life

You can't change the past, so get what lessons you can and move on. If you don't like the results of your past behavior, change your future behavior.
If you spend a lot of time concentrating on problems you cannot change, you will always feel powerless. Focus on yourself and things you really can change and take control of your life.
And no, it's not normal to notice that you are a worthless pimple on the ass of humanity. Count yourself lucky to be abnormal in that regard.

Hold tight... It's called life

first of get off the porn second its not all that bat and it could always get worse.