Do i need to seek help?
I've been in the children's psychiatry unit 2 times the past 2 years, once for trying to kill myself. I jumped out of my window, but it was a fail. I just fractured my back. I think i'm fine now but i'm not the same person I was before. I don't really care about anything anymore. Its not even a thing where I want to get out of town and start my life over, I just want to go to sleep forever. I have found I am not good at making friends and that I take everything too personal and become angered very easily. I see how big of a letdown I have already been to my family and I can't leave them with the name of "the family with the physio daughter that killed herself", but at the same time I want pain. I want someone to rob the store i'm shopping in so I can accidentally say the wrong thing and get shot. I want them to pull the trigger so I can just not be here anymore. I honestly don't think it's depression but I don't know if I should get help, or just leave it alone.