Do i get turned on by abuse because i was molested as a child?
As a kid I was sexual touched, forced to give hand jobs and blowjob. I was never "raped" through intercourse. The age when this first happened was six years old. Then it stopped and then started again when I was 10-13.
When I hit puberty before ever watching or knowing about porn I used to have humiliation fantasies as well as rough sex/ kidnapping etc.
Do you think that the abuse as a kid is a factor in the things that now turn me on? When I first started watching porn, which I don't watch regularly, was all very rough.
Also I could/would never hurt/ abuse anyone. It seems that I'm the one that likes to receive abuse .
I'd like honest and serious answers.