Do i get turned on by abuse because i was molested as a child?

As a kid I was sexual touched, forced to give hand jobs and blowjob. I was never "raped" through intercourse. The age when this first happened was six years old. Then it stopped and then started again when I was 10-13.
When I hit puberty before ever watching or knowing about porn I used to have humiliation fantasies as well as rough sex/ kidnapping etc.
Do you think that the abuse as a kid is a factor in the things that now turn me on? When I first started watching porn, which I don't watch regularly, was all very rough.
Also I could/would never hurt/ abuse anyone. It seems that I'm the one that likes to receive abuse .
I'd like honest and serious answers.

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  • Couman

    Of course it's difficult to be certain there is a cause and effect here because people who have never been molested also have those fantasies, but from what I've heard, what you describe does seem to be somewhat common.

    Let me also add that I don't think it has to be a bad thing, as long as you either keep it a fantasy, or practice it in a safe and consensual setting. You don't want to end up in a real-life abusive relationship, which sadly happens to some people with those feelings.

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  • Bragga

    The question is wether or not the abuse in your past causes your lust for it now and the answer is maybe. Because, I'm turned on by that too and nothing like this has ever happened to me or anyone I know as far as I know. So it seems like the absude in your past had to do with it, but it doesn't in my case

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