Did you have semi-imaginary friends??
I had semi-imaginary friends, who sometimes ended up being more than that. Most were musicians older than myself; they were always changing based on my tastes. They had magic powers, based on what they did in real life; so eg 1 who was/is an artist would have magic paints & tell me to blot things out/gloss over them. A musician would stun people w/ his face-melting guitar playing, singing a blues song in a cracked old voice, inspiring me to do the same (I’m disabled so I could sing the songs but not do the face-melting guitar playing.) They were always there to cheer me up.
I dropped them all, but I was so miserable. I put on weight, I snapped @ everyone & some other things happened, but let’s not dwell on them.
I am 31 y/o now & still have said IFs . I simply find living c/o them easier. My parents know of them & support me. When I’m in pain/feel disliked, the IFs are always there; I’m never bored. I’ve got rubbish road sense so moving out of my flat-share is not a good idea, not yet anyway. I never talk to them out loud. I’ve been to counselling, on & off, but it didn’t work.
I’ve a support worker who is always calling on her angels/spirit guides. Was I a member of a tribe it’d be expected for me to do this, so why is it normal for them but not me??.