Did you grow up loved and cared for?

To be blunt. No. My dad was an abusive alcoholic and my mum is closer to me but she let it happen. I know thats not fair on her as I know it would be hard to leave a relationship like that but he wasn't abusive to her, just to me. Don't get me wrong I still have a few good memories but no not a good childhood. Still. It gave me the determination to be nothing like my dad and that if I ever had kids I'd make sure i'd be the best father I could be

i didnt think i was because i grew up with bullshit in my life, sometimes i still think im not because idk, i guess i think to deep into certian stuff.

Yes. However dysfunctional my family might seem we still live each day trying our best to love and care for each other. This made me grateful about the little things in life and think that however bad things may be I'm still luckier than someone else.

I wasn't really abused, but I was a bit of an inconvieniance to my parents which explains why I'm so fucked up, just check some of the shit I have posted on here.
And I can't spell.

It didn't feel like it. I'm sure there were moments but I distinctly remember feeling most loved and cared for by people I wasn't even related to. For reasons unknown, I was kept from getting to know/seeing my father's family. I was frequently told by certain members that they hated me. However, many years later I found out that this wasn't true. I was verbally, emotionally, mentally and possibly sexually abused. To uncover the truth behind the later one, I'm going to have to do regression therapy. :/ Etc. I can't really think of anything else to say.