Did my break-up turn me gay?
My whole life I have been straight. I have had a number of girlfriends all long-term.
A few months back I went through a difficult break-up.
For months I withstood any and all advances by females because all I could think about was my ex and I didnt want to be with another woman. I had thought I was going to marry her.
The ride has been emotional and though I was really strong for a while I found myself in a deep depression.
Last week an old acquaintence of mine had me over. He had recently gotten out of a long-term relationship and thought we could benefit from talking to each other. We ended-up having sex. I'm ashamed to say it felt good. (My friend is gay).
He wants to do it again. Says it is no big deal, just physical so we can help each other out exclusively between relationships.
I think the enjoyment was just physical. It was the first time I did anything sexual with anyone since my ex. I could never kiss a man or date a man though. I am attracted to females and connect emotionally only w/ females. I've always wanted to get married and have kids.
What should I do? Does that make me gay?