Deliberately violating your own values

I hate throwing old toys away. Might have been an early influence of 'Toy Story'. Who knows. They have such sweet little faces. Throwing them in the bin feels barbaric.
There is a number of rather normal things like that which feel morally repulsive to me.

I have depression and a history of hurting myself to distract myself from pain/self hatred. I sometimes find myself daydreaming about ruthlessly doing these 'barbaric' things and laughing, just to feel the pain of a violated conscience.

Is it normal to deliberately violate your own values as an act of self-harm?

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9% Normal
Based on 11 votes (1 yes)
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  • Shackleford96

    But do you actually do it, or do you just fantasize about doing it?

    Why not just donate your old toys to a goodwill store or something? I'm sure some child would be happy to play with them.

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  • curious-bunny

    I'm that way on stuffies, have so many

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  • RoseIsabella

    If the old toys are in good condition a collector might want them.

    I've never actually seen Toy Story. I don't want to see it. I'm just saying.

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