Day dream about fighting
One of my favorite movies is Fight Club. I love fighting, watching it, especially when it's glorified. I love it in movies, as well books. It doesn't have to be bloody. My favorite scene in Sherlock Holmes is when he is boxing. I'm a big fan of Guy Riche because of the fighting scenes. I love fighting and being hurt, but I hate pain.
I want a black eye, I don't want the pain involved. I want a broken arm, don't want to suffer. I want to fight people. Not arguing though I hate arguing. I love rugby and boxing. Tried sports, it didn't exactly work out.
I also day dream about getting in physical fights with people (hate and don't hate).
I have been told I have an angry streak in me by a lot of people, even friends.
The more I go on in Life I want to fight.
What's happening to me!?