Curious about other penis
I was born with a penis that to be surgically sewn back together as it did not develop fully before I was born.
Ever since I could get an erection I have struggled with my manhood. It is about 4" long, with a wide girth. However when erect it is so hard( like rock) and is not flexible (always vertical). I lack normal sensation during sex unless I do it myself, and do not ejaculate.
I am becoming more curious to know what a 'normal' penis feels like to touch, and fantasise about giving a guy a blow job or hand job.
I am married and have always enjoyed women's company. I don't think I am gay but this curiosity about other men's willies is becoming an obsession.
I cannot decide what to do about it.I thought about meeting up with a transexual escort but not sure if this is a safe way to go about this.
I have spoken to my wife about it and she thinks it could help satisfy my curiosity or just make me feel worse about my own anatomy.
What do you think I should do?