Crying is embarrassing and i'll never do it

I find crying extremely embarrassing FOR ME. Other people crying in front of me is not a big deal. I'll comfort you and make you feel better. I won't judge. UNLESS I am the one crying then I have a huge problem.

My parents got a bit worried about me as a kid because they'd beat me and I wouldn't cry. My mom then would beat me until I had to pretend to cry.

So anyway I never cried during funerals. Even my aunts and grandad funeral. Can't imagine anyone seeing me cry. I was sad but no tears were shed and I felt guilty because I probably didn't look sad enough without tears and all but I can't handle people seeing me cry. No way. I probably won't cry during my parents funeral either. But that won't be sad though let's be honest.

Something can bring me to tears but I won't shed them! I won't even let people see me tear up. I'll hide it as best as I can!!

Is it normal????

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Based on 10 votes (7 yes)
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  • Harry_Irision93

    I can't say you should actively repress and ignore ALL of your emotions, but stoicism is a virtue, and you should be glad that you try to exert it by your nature.

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  • SkullsNRoses

    It’s no wonder you feel you can’t show any sign of weakness or vulnerability when your parents would beat you up as a child. When parents are unsupportive or terrorising a child’s inner resolve is all they have.

    Your situation is not normal but your response of repression of emotions and maintaining a facade of unwavering strength is completely understandable.

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  • 1WeirdGuy

    I think its a common trait as a man to not want ppl to see you cry. Thats prolly your instincts not wanting to show weakness to the world. I think its natural. We evolved to be like that. Your ancestors had to fight wars and shit.

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    • bigbudchonger

      Yes, exactly. I cry in private sometimes, but you just don't cry in public as a man. It's a pussy move.

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  • RoseIsabella

    I always cry at cat funerals, not so much for homo sapiens.

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  • Anonnet

    I'd say yeah, normal. I don't think most people like to see other people see them cry.

    I'd do it, too, if I had a choice. I didn't face any physical abuse from my parents, but it was still a scary time and I got bullied at school. Unfortunately, I have no way and no idea how to simply not cry. My eyes just kinda do whatever they want, so I had quite a few embarrassing moments. It still happens, too. It's only when I get stressed, though, not sad. I'll tear up after running a mile or having a long discussion with my boss, but not at a funeral.

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  • howaminotmyself

    What about Disney movies?

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