Crying is embarrassing and i'll never do it
I find crying extremely embarrassing FOR ME. Other people crying in front of me is not a big deal. I'll comfort you and make you feel better. I won't judge. UNLESS I am the one crying then I have a huge problem.
My parents got a bit worried about me as a kid because they'd beat me and I wouldn't cry. My mom then would beat me until I had to pretend to cry.
So anyway I never cried during funerals. Even my aunts and grandad funeral. Can't imagine anyone seeing me cry. I was sad but no tears were shed and I felt guilty because I probably didn't look sad enough without tears and all but I can't handle people seeing me cry. No way. I probably won't cry during my parents funeral either. But that won't be sad though let's be honest.
Something can bring me to tears but I won't shed them! I won't even let people see me tear up. I'll hide it as best as I can!!
Is it normal????