Crisis of self?

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I've never particularly had much of a sense of self but then for years I never really did any thinking it's as if i was surface thinkng most of my life, but I never really felt my identity was my own

now i'm even worried my opinions aren't even my own but something i've copied and pasted from the countless other opinions we're bombarded with every day, but on here i'm me, at least the biggest semblence of me i think there is, it's like i'm raw id on is it normal free with anonyminity to spout whatever shit is on my mind unfiltered

but i've recently been going back over and reading my contributions on is it normal for the last 3 odd years and it's like i don't know this twat who's had my username, doesn't compute, doesn't ring me as my words which made me feel like i finally lost the slightest sense of self i had

but i'm wondering, who really does have a sense of self, you always hear the term " finding yourself " so iin? this lack of sense of self i have or is it abnormal

ps: how many of you read back over old is it normal you? worse than going back on facebook :/

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  • insideYourTube
    7 years ago

    Remember when I first came on this site "IIN I fell in love with a hooker"?

    I havn't changed still, insicure, vulnruble, can't spell, depressed, anxious, lazy, stupid, angry. The only thing that has changed is I'm not drunk anymore.

    I've don't think I haven't found myself I just don't think I like myself.

    Anyway, it's time for special secret me time.

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  • mysistersshadow
    7 years ago

    I think alot of ppl go thru there lives not ever really thinking. Look at how there are TVs everywhere so no one has to deal with any uncomfortable silence. Its hard for most ppl to just be still and present with there own thoughts they have to keep a constant stream of music or social media going thru there head so they don't ever have time to think.

    You may have made the most amazing breakthru of your life with your realization.

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  • RoseIsabella
    7 years ago

    This place changes people.

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    • kingofcarrotflowers
      7 years ago

      i'm not even convinced it's that, i've found all sorts of shit from my past and thought the same

      plus there have been long sections of time where i've been off iin, then again a lot of stuff has happened on here and now i'm thinking about it there have been at least two thingds that have changed my outlook on certain things, hmm, i'm not sure if my changes have made their way on to iin or if it's the other way round

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      • sandnigga
        7 years ago

        maybe you've changed your opinion on one or two things

        and in your mind you're exaggerating that you dont know yourself, because not everything about yourself has remained the same?

        I was also thinking you couldve changed. But if you did change one or two things about yourself, it's not a big deal.
        You would still be yourself

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        • kingofcarrotflowers
          7 years ago

          but the issue is i don't know who " myself " is, i'm unsure of my opinions and personality i was listening to a podcast recently that drove this home

          they were going over how over years all the cells in your body are replaced so not only mentally but physically you're changing too, then mentally and emotiobally, as we grow and experience naturally we changed based on the experiences until you can be radically different from the you of 5-10 years ago , yet there's continuity, you're still " you " and that will never change, but the idea of " me " seems alien to me, so i feel like regardless of how much or little i have, may have and will change i don't have a reference point, almost, it's hard to explain

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          • RoseIsabella
            7 years ago

            Is it possible you're experiencing some sort of depersonalization? Sometimes I have times when I feel like I dissociate.

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            • sandnigga
              7 years ago

              thats a good simple name for it lol

              he mightve gone through some of that, and now he's not used to the changes, possibly

              but thats why you should try to remember what has changed for you, if theres anything

              if nothing has changed for you, then its something else

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          • sandnigga
            7 years ago

            i think what it is, is that you mightve change a good amount of yourself, that you think you've lost your identity of your old self, and therefore you're not used to the new changes

            makes sense. just like if i were to like tacos and burritos only, and 1 year later, stop liking mexican food, and switch to american food only

            it might feel strange. but thats just the thing, you gotta think about the things you know for sure has changed in you, if theres anything to support what we're talking about

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      • RoseIsabella
        7 years ago

        I feel like I've changed for the better.

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