Constantly walking on eggshells

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It's been 4 years since I left school and I haven't got a job, the first year I was being selfish and enjoying my free time, the second year I was at college, then I had a year of only applying for jobs like warehouse work or other jobs which don't involve much interaction because of severe social anxiety.
Now in the forth year I went on a course to help with my anxiety, it didn't work, neither did volunteer work but it's to the point now where I'm applying for every job I see that I'm qualified for even with my severe anxiety I'm applying for jobs like bartender etc, I applied for 9 jobs in one week and haven't heard back from any of them.
Despite applying and spending hours searching every day I've only had one interview, my family are understandably pissed off and I'm ashamed of my laziness to begin with and especially my social anxiety.
This whole thing has made me extremely anxious around my family, when I'm in the house on my own once I finish my search I can watch tv, play music or go on the PlayStation, when anyone else is here I'm constantly walking on eggshells, I feel like any min I'll get shouted at for not trying to get a job despite me searching like crazy and despite the fact they can ve supportive.
When someone is in the house I can't do anything, I finish my search after hours then sit in my room doing nothing, I'm waiting for something awful to happen so I can't read or play games, I get the feeling of a child waiting to be told off an irrationally high level of anxiety and impending doom, IIN?

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  • LadyOfDecay♡
    9 years ago

    Well, I guess its not wrong of your parents to want you to get a job, but its not very considerate of them if they nag you everyday about it.

    They should realise you are trying your best and if your best isn't enough for all the employers out there, that's not your fault. I was taken out of highschool a year and half before I was meant to graduate and my mother was on my ass every single day about finding a job.

    The more I tried to explain that every place I applied to probably ignores my applications because I don't have a highschool diploma, the more she would freak out. I understand, and always have understood, why she was so hard on me about getting a job, but arguing with me about it only made me frustrated and angry.

    I went from loving being out of highschool early, to hating it and resenting everybody who was still in school. I would get bitter and angry when I saw facebook/blackberry messenger statuses about exams, homework, etc.

    That being said, I really hope you find a job soon for your sake, so you don't have to walk on eggshells anymore.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      Thanks :)

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  • deepthought33
    9 years ago

    I am in a similar boat and I too feel like I'm going to get a smart-ass response to my current joblessness (I just moved) or the cleanliness of the house if I even think of sitting down before everything is done. The floor is blessedly free of egg shells during the day and I happily do my job hunts during those hours, but as soon as he gets home...it is a countdown to bedtime.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      I'm sorry to hear that, hopefully we can find something soon :)

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  • thegypsysailor
    9 years ago

    When I was an employer, I wouldn't even look at a resume unless the person had been to the boat at least three times. The ones that got the jobs (hundreds of applicants and only a handful of positions each year), were the ones who came back, day after day, making a total nuisance of themselves, but showing me how much they wanted the job.
    Not on topic, I know, but just saying.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      That's a good idea, increase my chances but at the same time forcing myself to be assertive could help with my confidence

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      • thegypsysailor
        9 years ago

        Hey, they're either going to hire you because they like your drive, or they're going to call the cops. Either way, you get a meal, whether you pay for it, or the state does. LOL

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