Constant thoughts of self harm

I used to compulsively scratch myself when I felt very stressed etc. I've now started cutting and biting myself and the thoughts of hurting myself are always seething underneath, like a sort of obsession. It's not so much the release of the pain that gets to me now - it's more the satisfaction of giving in to the nagging in my head. The thoughts are constantly there, even when nothing has triggered off the urge to cut (how it used to be.)

Now, I know that self harm isn't a healthy behaviour, but it's this constant urge that has developed that I'm bothered about. Anyone know what I'm talking about?

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  • DontCare

    Same as me! Read my post on it! you may be able to relate?

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    • PoisonFlowers

      Done.

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  • hotchickie81

    I know exactly what you're talking about...

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    • PoisonFlowers

      I'm sorry that you do :(
      It's strange - I don't care when it's me doing it to myself, but when I hear about other people too, it just tears me up inside.

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  • sexy_chicka

    when im very frustrated i bite my wrists and arms. i also hit myself and bend my fingers baackwards so they hurt

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  • Janice109

    It's normal but I'm glad to hear you have improved.

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  • kittyjibblets

    i used to dig big holes in my legs, rip off my nails and rip out my hair. it becomes an unconcious habit. sometimes you don't know you're doing it til after it's bleeding and you don't remember feeling any pain while doing it. it's also like a tick sometimes like you feel like you need to do it or you'll go nuts. self mutilation is very common and can be dangerous. i would say consult your doctor and get help so that you don't seriously injure yourself

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  • SamuraiPeeper

    I don't feel that urge now, but a while back when I was in an even worse situation I did. I used to scratch my scalp 'til it bled and when I tousled or combed my hair little scabs and patches of dried blood would fall out or clog up the comb. Then I went through a period when I would burn myself with cigarettes and occasionally a heated nail or something like that. I'm not sure about the nagging in your head though.

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    • PoisonFlowers

      I'm glad you got through that and that things aren't as bad anymore.

      You know, things aren't too bad for me. I'm just very weak and pathetic, that's why I'm the way I am. No, I'm not saying that because of low-self esteem or anything like that - it's actually true. It's a character flaw. That's why everytime I post things like this, I feel incredibly guilty.

      I've stopped doing this for the most part as well. I only really feel the urge when I'm being weak again. All of my problems are in my head. I can see that so clearly sometimes.

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  • 0404

    I used to be a person that would self harmed I did it for five years or more straight I am taking few times day and at few times at night every night and day its a horrible feeling it became to a point where I would crave it the blade into my skin anything sharp. I self harmed because i did not want to be here anymore and I also did it because I felt num and I wanted feel alive and to take away the anxiety pain away and focus on another pain something like that for distraction type of thing! So your not alone there are lots people who do it or have done it but its very hard to stop and can eat you way in side it affect you really badly and it leads to more depression and anxiety you think its helping but you learn down the track its not. I think you should see a doctor and get someone to help right way before it gets worse and worse and you can't stop.And try filling up your days with things that make you happy so you feel better fined hobbies and don't sleep to much or lazy around to much that makes it worse. And never ever drink when you feel down because that does not end well I have been down that road as well. And look for positivity like things that make you happy if you can't think of any from the top your head start looking and thinking hard because all positive thoughts kill negative stuff!!
    I am 2-3 years clean and much happier with myself life it took a very long time to get better doesn't just happen over night it can takes years but you also have want to get better and want help for it to help, I will always have anxiety and depression for life in my case every case different but every day I get little better I don't self harm at all anymore I sometimes still crave it but learnt to block those thoughts out over time no matter how bad or good my day is or week has been!!
    its ok to ask for help its for the better tell yourself!!
    Best of luck!! :)
    Your not alone!!
    I hope you find your light and you soon shine bright!!

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  • Ebola69

    It's anxiety. Try to improve your nutrition and increase your physical activity.

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  • ch88ky

    Yep same problem

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