Constant thoughts about murder/death

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For the last year or so I have been having daydreams or 'visions' if you will, about killing everything and anyone I see. To be clear I rarely think about MY death, it's more class mates, teachers, family member, animals, and strangers. I have diagnosed depression and anxiety but I'm starting to think its more than that,. My real infatuation is with blood, I think about it almost constantly. I've always thought self harm was ridiculous until my need to see and feel blood got so strong that I had to cut myself for fear of going out and getting it from another source. I Don't think there is a person I've laid eyes on that hasn't been massacred in my mind. These thoughts are fifty or more times a day. Please note that my irritability level has increased at an alarming rate and I haven't been sleeping a healthy amount. I'm somewhat concerned that this "need" to cause harm will escalate. If you have experienced thus or have any HELPFUL advice I would greatly appreciate it.

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  • RoseIsabella
    10 years ago

    It's time to see a mental health professional.

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  • BluePanda
    6 years ago

    I have been experiencing the same kind of visions, but not that many. I have between 2 - 10 every day. I read somewhere it might be Pure-O (a kind of OCD). I am currently seeing a psychologist for depression but I am afraid of telling her about my visions. I have been self harming for years to suppress the urges. but they keep coming.

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  • my_life_my_way
    9 years ago

    so you're kinda like vlad the impaler

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  • Wing
    9 years ago

    Whoever you are I love blood so much to,please don't kill anyone,it's hard for me daily but I handle it in my own ways.

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  • LizardWorst
    10 years ago

    I'm going to say not normal, however professional's do know of this happening to many people.
    You are one of a few who can live their life completely normal with a little help and guidance. I would suggest actively staying away from weapons and combat sports and try to be active with calming activity's like art and track sports.
    If you do intend to get in contact with blood for any reason or impulse then be safe, there are diseases that are blood born like HIV that can cause health issues.
    Just don't stay out all night wearing capes and makeup. :)

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    You would not be saying these things once you see a good friend get shot and bleed out helplessly.

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  • Tommythecat.
    10 years ago

    Depression.

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  • Skitzo1
    10 years ago

    Its sort of normal for your "mental stability" the only way I see myself killing someone in my imagination is by tearing them apart with some telekinetic superpower like from the film "Looper" (You know the bit where the kid does it? And my mum dives for cover with the poor Bruce Willis look alike?)

    But you just have to learn to love and realize the value of life. Blood and life is very important. I can almost certainly bet you will regret taking someones life. It's best not to think about killing people and think about saving them, think about saving them from a bloodthristy villain that could be you, but you defend them by killing said villain? You sound pretty nuts with your lust for blood, but I've nearly been there.

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