Confused between i want a paternal or romantic/sexual figure
For all my life I have only been attracted to much older men. I value their maturity, intelligence, and protectiveness. However, I'm confused about whether I see them as merely a father figure or as a sexual interest (not that I would act on this). Worryingly I have Googled this and found very little. I hate that I'm getting older (19 now) but have always felt this way and wonder when it will stop. I desperately need to stop feeling like I need a father figure when I am no longer a child.