Confused about my sexuality as a straight woman
Okay, I need some advice or maybe just an analysis. All I ask is that you are respectful. Thank you. So, I would consider myself a straight female. I like dick, I have dated men since high school, I recently broke up with my boyfriend of 3.5 years. That aside, while I do consider myself straight, there are just moments when for a second, I feel this burst of emotion, and I am not sure whether it is a "girl crush" as in, (for example, looking at emma stone on the red carpet) oh my gosh I am so jealous of how pretty this girl looks, I wish I WAS her, I wish I had her career and her sense of fashion, or oh my gosh, I would almost consider being with this woman. I think that's fairly normal, I think most straight girls have experienced those admirable, non-sexual crushes in which you aspire to emulate somebody you appreciate. But then other times, like I previously mentioned, I have another emotion, which is sometimes intermingled with the girl crush, but I think it's a real crush. And it doesn't happen like everyday, like I won't see girls walking down the street and be attracted to them. A lot of my college friends have "experimented" with kissing girls, and while I have kissed my share of women, it was mostly because I knew that it would turn on guys who I was attracted to. Sometimes, I am at a club and I occasionally, once in a blue moon, see an out of this world gorgeous girl. There is just something about certain women that I don't think anybody can deny. I mean, girls are generally really pleasant, we smell nice, we have beautiful hair, good features, etc. but some girls are just so beautiful and radiant that everybody enjoys them? And even though I am not usually attracted to women in the same, direct way that I am towards men, I don't know what I would consider this. Also, another type of some sort of specific, but rare attraction I have is sometimes through female singing voices. For ex. when I heard Lana del Rey's voice for the first time, I was immediately attracted to her, because of her voice. The same thing occurred when I heard Sia's Chandelier. Some female voices are just so utterly breathtaking, so raw and sexy and I feel the same attraction, or perhaps a sliver of it, that I feel towards men 97% of the time, towards girls, maybe 3% of the time. I don't know if this makes me "heteroflexible" or if I would automatically be considered bi even though I am almost never attracted towards women. Have any other straight girls experienced a feeling like this? Or can you not consider yourself hetero if you have had even the tiniest attraction towards another girl? Please leave any thoughts you have. Thx again!