Completely terrified of sex
So, I am 22, have never had sex, and have been officially single for 4 years. Within the last year, the closest thing I have had to that only went as far as a couple hardcore makeout sessions (which may have been why a relationship never happened? idk). While I did enjoy it, the entire time I was having a panic attack. I was thinking, what happens if he wants to have sex? I was so scared, and not because it would be first time, but because the thought of having sex absolutely terrifies me. I do not know why, but the thought of it repulses me. Part of me feels that it may be because I am scared that I would get pregnant as a result (I am not on birth control), and the other half of me is attributing it to my obsessive compulsive disorder. Is it normal to feel this way? I am scared that I am going to end up in my 30s unmarried and still a virgin. Advice please?