Coming home from war.

I have never been in combat so there is no way I could understand what you went through, but it sounds like PTSD to me. There are a lot of other veterans that can relate to you and there are many therapists and counsellors offering help. My advice, is to seek some help.

I know what you're going through. I'm an infantry vet (Mosul 03-04). When I came back, I self medicated with crystal meth and dropped out of society... went off the grid. Picked up a long criminal record. Finally a public defender told me about the VA. The Army didn't tell me jack shit about resources that were available after ETS. I'm currently rated 70% for PTSD and fall under Individual Unemployability. My wife says I wake up screaming regularly. I have hit her in my sleep and once tried to kill her by grappling and I have no conscious memory of it. I always carry multiple weapons everywhere. I'm just very fortunate that my wife comes from a military family and they understand.

You do care but are holding on to that rage I think because you feel that the experience you had over there. Then to come back and have to deal with your wifes lies that led to divorce. Your life was out of your control, what happened over there you had no control of as well. Rather then get back in to every day life you are shutting your self out from friends, family and even you for fear of vulnerability of not having control. Now this is just my take but I can understand very well what you are feeling. Depression is playing a serious factor with you and that needs to be seriously addressed. I am worried for you my friend a stranger that has touched my heart.....

Thank you for serving. Are you given counseling options upon return? You should seek out people to talk to. I don't think you're broken, just a little bent out of shape. And you should talk to your friends, they might surprise you.

Sorry to hear the difficulties you are facing. Considering all that you have been through in war, yes your response to that situation is 'normal'. Yes, you came home broken and messed up.

Those survival mechanisms / behaviours that served you very well in war are are not working in this part of your life. You need to find a way to deal with and unpack the trauma that you have been through. You have been through hell on earth. You will need some help to get through this difficult time. Please seek help. Best regards and good luck.

I salute you. Its completely normal to feel this way. My guess is you're suffering from trauma from warfare and readapting to non-militant life is challenging for you. Don't keep these feelings inside, that could lead to negative outcomes. Talk to someone who would understand how you are feeling. Semper Fidelis.

You know that how you are feeling isnt right or you wouldnt be on this forum.... Get some time with a professional and do the work it takes to get your life back... This doesnt have to be permanent, but it will be if you dont take action

Thank you for serving we appreciate it very much. Often when deployed soldiers come back from war it seems like it was a lifetime over there for them I bet. So everything you originally knew how to do was probably forgotten like how to cope with anger because you were trained to be extreamly good soldiers, not happy go-lucky people that are happy even if they get robbed. You probably need counseling and therapy like everyone says. But even though your battle wounds will probably heal the emotional wounds will always be there and you can only help keep them in controll. I am not a vet so I'm not sure but I've read stories from real vets and that's what I'm guessing. Good luck and thank you again for your dedication to this country.

Srry for ur pain sir, and thank you for serving we salute you

My boyfriend is a combat vet that physically survived several tours in both Iraq and Afghanistan. He also holds a PhD in forensic psychology; and yet this does not stop the ongoing nightmares, stresses, and temperment which is associated with our vets when they come home from war. We are both extremely active in a great deal of organizations designed specifically for what your dealing with, although these organizations, I'm ashamed to say, are not through our "esteemed" VA programs.
Noone knows what you're dealing with, exactly, but you...however there are avenues to take for whatever guidence you feel you must seek.
Do not hesitate to let me know if you need some direction for help. We work all over the country, and we both would be honored to do whatever we can for you.
You're not alone. And you're appreciated.
Thankyou for your service.

You almost certainly have PTSD and this will not go away on its own. Don't aim to "get over it" because you won't, but you can have a good life again and live with the fact that you experienced trauma and now experience the longterm consequences of it.

I've marched against all wars since I was in my 20's but that doesn't stop me from feeling sympathy for returned servicemen & women and the trauma their governments have exposed them to. I'm shocked that yr VA doesn't help you with this

what did they inject you with?
your stupid country inject their solders with this shit before they go to war, there is your answer.

Wait.

Your service docent just help America it helps all of north America thank you for your service and your courage

I think people forget how psychologically damaging fighting in a war can be. You may feel nothing but you know it's wrong and you obviously want to feel, it's not normal at all for a human to feel nothing and I think you may need a psychiatrist.
Talking to other veterans may help to see how they got over their problems?

Considering you get angry that shows you arent empty if you were empty you wouldnt feel angry or happy. You might have an anger problem but your not empty I would say its normal.