Caught out on drugs?

Hey buddy, my story is very much like yours but I'm 29. up to 21 from when I was 13 I was doing heavy drugs sometimes few thousand a day. Don%%u2019t lose hope my man, your motivation should be your girls. Death is never the answer. Trust me. I have seen so much in life that most people would have taken their own lives. I too have been in and out of jail, rehab and mental hospitals. I now am married and have a 6 year old that keeps me going. I aint no saint now but I finally have control over my life where I can smoke a joint and not smoke for months after that. I don%%u2019t consider myself a user now days. I started reading the bible (was a Satanist before) and now days though I don%%u2019t go to church I consider myself a Christian and spend most of my free time online to build Christian sites educate myself. I try to keep myself busy all day and have put all my previous life behind me. I no longer associate with the criminals and maniacs I once used to. Nothing happened over night and it was a long battle that took me years. I have to say I make almost 6 figs now and support my family. Never give up man; I've been in your shoes. I put a gun to my head in front of a cop who came to arrest me and was going to take my own life, the cop talked to me and he was one of the main people that helped me change. He took me home and helped my mom to take me to the mental hospital - at this time I had been on pills and meth for a week with no food so I was screwed up. Anyhow, he could have taken me to jail and locked my ass up for years but he saw I needed help. Long story short, do NOT GIVE UP. Drugs are a mother f****r and I'll be praying for you. 46 is very young. You have a whole lot in life - you need to be a dad for your daughters and a grandfather to your grandkids one day.

I always thought that I won%%u2019t make it even to 25 - but in my opinion, that%%u2019s the devils lies to keep us in the bondage of drugs.

You can contact me if you want to speak to me.

Take care bud.

Life is Worth Living and its a Gift! Lets not waste and forget our place in this World! We as humans are over comers and we need to win our own battles and become over comers.

You're probably like 10 judging by the grammar.

sometimes i feel like throwing in the towel too bill but i never would for the sake of the ppl who love me. think of your precious girls? besides, death will find you and life will be done and over with before you know it. as for the drugs, im a very open minded person, as long as your not risking the safety of your children or hurting/affecting other ppl by all means go for it... as long as you dont let the drugs control your life (again its your call.. this is just a word of advice)

Owned.

I wonder how he made out.

Hi Bill. My name is Emily and I'm 21 years old. My father is your age and he's lived a rough life as well. He has three girls too. I'm not sure what age he began smoking cigarettes, but I know he went to weed, cocaine, and he's tried other drugs like acid. He's also tried pills and I know that my mother is addicted to them. I'm not sure about my father.

I'm sorry about your life and what's happened to you throughout it, but as a daughter to my father, I want to tell you that killing yourself is not worth it. If you can't find something worth fighting and standing up for, you'll fall for anything -- just like the drugs. Turn your life to God. And I know this sounds so cliche. But you need something to believe in, something to help carry you through these rough times.

Maybe you don't believe in God. Well, still, try praying, and pray hard. See if someone, somewhere doesn't answer your prayers. It may take an hour, a day, or even a month, but if you truly believe, I guarantee that your prayers will be answered. Pray for an opportunity to go to rehab. Talk to your girls about your problems and tell them that you want to make a change in your life.

Think about the times in the past when life was good. You can go back to those times...you can bring them to the now by changing your life, cleaning up, and finding something to believe in. Please don't take the easy way out. You'll never forgive yourself after death and you're likely to end up even more miserable on the other side.

Please, Bill. I'm praying for you.

Please don't kill yourself... think of your girls!!

Sorry, but I think you got it wrong. The drugs are probably causing your bi-polar. See your doctor, get the right medication, keep on the right side of the law, and enjoy life. No-one gets ahead by taking drugs, committing crime, getting in and out of jail, having no job and no money. Work hard, play hard, enjoy life. It is never too late

And, more precisely, what do you seek by posting that? Just venting?

i had this once and your best freind at this point is going to be an ipod just plug in and zone out on loud good music

This sounds like a poorly made up Rap song

you simply need to learn to be more functional and practical. i mean, by now you gotta know your own tendancies