Cant stop the feeling

I started doing all those things at an age even younger then 12. By the time I was 14 years old I had done just about every drug I could get my hands on. As well as become a full blown IV heroin addict, who had been to rehab already at least 3 or 4 times. That was all just at 14. By the time I was 16 years old I had been in treatment more then 10 times overdosed at least 7 times, and had flatlined and been pronounced dead by doctors to only somehow be revived after about 5 minutes going by! To then be in a coma for a month and on life-support to by some Devine miracle pulling through and waking up from a vegetable like state to going through physical rehab and learning how to walk talk eat bath everything!! all over again! Followed by more drug rehab and living in a recovery home for a year and a half. And I thought all of that was normal, no matter how Manu people told me that it wasn't normal at all, whether they were a professional telling me this or not, I still thought this was all normal and happened to everyone. I was wrong this isn't normal excessive drug use like that or like yours isn't normal or healthy. It's a miracle I survived this all, much less to be a fairly normal functioning girl today. I should be dead and I should have been dead many different times. I was lucky to make it and get the help I needed. The worst part is when you hear about the kids that aren't even necessarily doing the harder drugs such as heroin or meth, dieing because something just went wrong. Or someone shooting dope for their first time and overdosing and dieing with the needle still in their arm cuz that shit was cut with fetanyol and they don't even know what that is. You OD with that shit without even knowing that your ODing, and pay the ultimate consequence of losing your life. Because you just didn't know what you were dealing with, you thought you were invincible...but your not. I've lost plenty of loved ones to addiction, and each time it gets harder and harder. Don't put your loved ones through what I have. You have your whole life ahead of you still, do some soul searching and hopefully you'll find that the drugs just aren't worth it. Your not alone kid, there is a way out. There are treatment centers and the NA program as well as the AA program. Don't be another one lost to this sick disease. You've got a future ahead of you. Who knows what your here to do in your life, what great things your meant to achieve, or even who else's life your here to touch...maybe even save. If you can't do it for yourself, then do it for that person in the future that needs you, because their life might depend on you.

Wow I really have become a crazy weirdo on this shit, but it's all true

I've never heard anyone say, "I did drugs and it really turned out great!". Listen to amberinboston and get some help from a professional. You are worth it and you deserve a great life - now go start living it with a clear head. I hope everything turns out well for you - keep us posted!

You need professional help. A therapist, school teacher, or some community service advocate. You don't have to deal with this alone. Addictions are no joke. Please get help. (Hugs)
Amber

You need good advice-you need to figure out what you want out of your life- nobody else. You are solely responsible for your thoughts and actions and your happiness. you will never be able to get that from a man or a drug so don't try. I used to love drugs and I did a lot of x-there was a time that I din't want to live without it and I really didn't want to stop and it wasn't until i quit listening to everyone else and figured out what truly brought me happiness- not the kind that doesn't give me anything back and wears off after a couple of hours, that I felt like I didn't want it anymore. oh, and that whole cliche statement about misery loving company- it's true your friends don't want to be the only ones waking up puking or with headaches, they want to share the joy of hopefully returning to reality in pain with you. That is thoughtful huh?

Get away. It's not about the age but whatever your friends do or say when you back off. Don't mind. Addiction is the worst, you will feel down for a while or even depressed but deal with it. It's not worth dying.

Forget the past, focus on the here and now and what it is u want. U mite need to go away for a few wks, where u know no one and no one knows u, maybe the countryside, and just ride out the few horrilble days that will come. After that come up w a game plan for what it is u want from now on. Easier said than done I know, but channel ur restless ways via other means.

holy goddamn hell.

12 years old? how many goddamned hormones in meat did you have to consume to begin having sex at such an early age.

okay.. Bro, take my advice and listen.
ive been smoking weed drinking and smoking cigarrets since i was 11 or 12 as well,
as years went by the dosages went up, i have tried almost all drugs availible to the regular person. acid over 15 times shrooms over 30 times, ive done cocaine tried meth once, ive taken perscription pills i smoke pot and drink almost every day.
drugs will fuck your life up, no matter what. no questions. if your on this website asking about it then quit right now. please, drugs and alcohal have fucked my life up so bad.
i have a beautiful loving family that loves me and i havent payed attention to them really for about 4 years, without even thinking. man drugs make you insane, weather you want to belive it or not. you will get mood swings, you will feel like shit for no reason. your life will just not be the same after. you could even fuck you rlife over for good by doign something really stupid. and staying clear usually depends on where you live, if your social group or friends are all nearby and they all do drugs its even harder to quit.
if your doing it on your own like stealing it from your moms droor or something then smarten the fuck up and tell you parents and stop doing it. im not sure if my advice is okay. try just chilling at home on nights youd want to be doing drugs and smoking some weed and just watchign tv or whatever go on this website and surf through pages to pass the time.
anyways have a good one hope you stay clear of the garbage

ok. most of the time, some drugs are ok , if youare responsible and controlled. but if you ever feel you need it. STOP no mmatter how much it hurts. moderation is the key