Can't feel my sexuality anymore

ive never been with another person sexually but i consider myself a lesbian because ive only ever experienced sexual feelings for this one girl that i talked to online almost every night all through highschool. i was in love and obsessed.
long story short she moved away i stopped attending school just began isolating myself and smoking weed.
now i cant feel my sexuality anymore.
not sure if its because i dont have feelings for anyone, if its that ive smoked too much weed, if its that ive masturbated too much(my cl*t just feels like a bruise now i hardly ever try anymore)
i really miss my emotions and my sexuality and im really worried ill never experience it again.
i try imagining loving someone being held. i miss that warm feeling i had in my heart.
anyway im just rambling now but has anyone experienced any of this before or have an opinion?

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  • buriedalive

    Well, I've heard weed can kill your sex drive, but as far as I know the effect's only temporary, so just cut that out for a while.
    Masturbation on it's own shouldn't do that, but if watch a lot of porn/ have pretty extreme fantasies sometimes you can become, for lack of a better word, 'jaded' and are less easily aroused by everyday stuff. Once again, if you stop for a while, hopefully your sexual feelings will start coming back to you.
    Given that it was just the one girl you fell for, it could also be that you're one of those people who needs to develop an emotional connection with someone before having sexual feelings for them, which is perfectly normal and nothing to fret about, if you think this might be the case just get out and try to meet new people until you find someone you like

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    • lonergirl

      thats good advice thank you

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  • EccentricWeird

    that sux

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  • watashikara

    Too much of something will numb your feelings towards it. I guess the same can happen with emotion.

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  • randomandcrazy

    i feel the same way :/ i heard it was all in my head but idk anymore :(

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