Can't feel my sexuality anymore
ive never been with another person sexually but i consider myself a lesbian because ive only ever experienced sexual feelings for this one girl that i talked to online almost every night all through highschool. i was in love and obsessed.
long story short she moved away i stopped attending school just began isolating myself and smoking weed.
now i cant feel my sexuality anymore.
not sure if its because i dont have feelings for anyone, if its that ive smoked too much weed, if its that ive masturbated too much(my cl*t just feels like a bruise now i hardly ever try anymore)
i really miss my emotions and my sexuality and im really worried ill never experience it again.
i try imagining loving someone being held. i miss that warm feeling i had in my heart.
anyway im just rambling now but has anyone experienced any of this before or have an opinion?