Can't do as good as the second time
So I love writing monoluges and I LOVE acting. I'm currently writing a monolague about someone's little sister dying, the girl telling a story of how she feels, saying what she remembers of their last moments together, and all that good stuff. Which makes it easier for me to get emotional because I just think of my little sister dying [[terrible, but works]] so halfway through writing it, I decide to read through it and act it out to see how it is. The first time, I start to cry, which is great. Then I read it again, do the same thing, and don't cry. I try again and still can't. What happened?? I don't understand what happened between the first time and the rest. Why can't I do it again??