Came to start a friendship, running away after sex. what now?

My friend that I know from junior school found me one day out of the blue and came to my apartment, wanting to start a friendship a couple of years ago. We were around eighteen years old. He lives in the block next to mine. This turned out to be with a sexual interest, as it started to become mutual masturbation after some 'massaging' quickly evolved! I could never have anticipated this from anyone as it had never happened to me before, nor did I behave like that with anyone before! He was very erotic and turned on, thus we started to experiment everything from the porn videos that we had seen.(we, as teenagers in our greatest time were ultimately doing this in the most adequate situation of our lives).
This was covered with some excuse about trying to find girlfriends together, but I didn't need any more after that as I was starting to get more turned on by the gay things, like he was too. He told me that he had done that once before with yet another friend from our class, but that they had promised themsleves to never do it again! We carried on meeting sooner as time went by and after touching, we carried on with oral sex. He told me how he jerked off on me, and having sex with me, as I did too. Although we did comunnicate when we didn't meet, he didn't want to create any references. I saw he was getting scared and unsecure about the fact that he liked it and that it had turned into something with me. He loved it, but wished that he didn't. He wanted to not have those feelings that turned him on full time! (he's a PISCES).
I liked it too, but didn't like the lying. With me, it's either all or nothing (I'm a CAPRICORN). I didn't really wish for that sort of thing in my life, but he helped it grow. As time went by I accepted it and I wanted it to grow even more, I got turned on and I wanted us to fuck 'till the end, but he stopped and couldn't let anything else happen, even though he would have. Those double-sided feelings are so difficult and seem un-solvable to me. But why did he start it at all, then? That's what I can't get.
Out of guilt he started going to his church saviours and was getting really put off by the fact he had sex with another boy. He told me he didn't want us to touch anymore, so it returned to masturbation, later stopping completely. I understand wanting to stop, but after all that happened previously, it can't just be blocked, wouldn't you agree? If anything, we could at least continue talking to eachother and solve it like that, since this way is only making it worse. So, what now? Any help would be appreciated.

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  • HardlyLurking

    By the sound of it he's never going to be comfortable being gay. Forget him and make new friends. It won't work out the way you want it to.

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  • Arm0se

    This whole thing is just a mess.... How old are you?

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    • 877

      It is, that's why it needs help! We were 18 then, now we're 23, although even then we were mature enough for the concept- talking about it all before. I think it's more with his personal traits and fear, than it is with anything else. The irony is, he's the one who started the whole thing!
      That's what's making me feel it's been done in a wrong way, but if that's how you're gonna solve problems, denying them all and acting differently, then let them remain in you. The next time you come into contact with anything close to that, your whole act's gonna collapse for the first five seconds since it has no stern foundations. Right??
      I was just thinking about the loss of the friendship, trying to save the few common features we had besides sex. Looks like there's no hope for that, at all. Lately I'm thinking alot about him and it all, walking by that block more often (since he's not at home a year or so- gone with his college group to another country). Maybe I shouldn't be so burdened by it all, but I would always think about the ones I'm close with. Even saying hello or replying to any personal message. Is that too much? For me it's standard- talk about logic and morals!

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