Bullied at university for being a small and skinny guy

I don't know why it happens. I'm 20, 5ft8.5 (174cm), 125lbs and going into year 2 of University. I'll start at the beginning, when I was in first term I was bullied constantly for being short, skinny, looking younger than my age and weak by a group of male flatmates who were taller, stronger, better looking, more succesful with girls and a lot more confident than me. Every time I was in the lounge of my student flat I'd get stick for being thin and small. They would never miss an opportunity to put me down for it. They would call me pussy and weakling, kid, and "do you even eat or lift". They would exclude me from going clubbing and playing snokker with them as well. I didn't expect this from 19, 20 year olds, I expected people to be more mature.

Whenever I wore shorts or a t-shirt, exposing my legs and foreams they would laugh at me and everybody there would follow. It wasn't just in the lounge, they also backstabbed me constantly to all the girls, including one I fancied who laughed and said I was "too small and needed to get bigger if he want sexual relationships", and that just hurt me. It happened every day and it wore my patience down until I thought about suicide.

I started to really hate my body after this, and although I moved out from that crowd, now in the second year I find it hard to feel comfortable or 'safe'. I didn't make any friends in year 1. I feel like I'm too small and skinny and that people see me as a weak and inferior specimen, especially other males. I've never had a girlfriend either. Girls say I'm too skinny as well. It seems a guys looks are more important than his grades.

I'm thinking about bodybuilding to get bigger but I despise the whole "meathead" gym culture, and I can't afford to workout at a gym, only home. I also want people to see me as me from the inside, and not just an outer body. It would feel like I'm cheating just to fit in. What should I do?

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Comments ( 16 )
  • Dhalsim

    Same thing happened to me in college in my first and second years. I moved off campus away from those losers. But before I did they tormented me relentlessly. They called me names on account if my ethnicity, and my small size and nerdy appearance. I started taking martial arts, made friends that actually cared about me including college wrestlers and then even joined a meathead frat as I matured and transformed my body and mind as college is all about finding yourself. But it came at the ultimate cost. I attempted and failed at suicide but when you are face to face with death you learn something about yourself, whether you have the survival instinct. I made a pact with myself that if I plan to die I will die BIG. I lost all inhibitions and started really living life. I partied so hard, made so many friends, fought so hard, studied hard, and learned to love life. I'm still alive in my thirties now and not a day goes by when I remember the blood pact I made with myself. We all have to die. But you choose how you want to live. Good luck in finding your own way.

    Btw, Those same tormentors four years later feared and respected me. In fact nobody messed with me ever again. Today I do MMA while my peers are overweight and lame. I'm still skinny at 5'8" and 125 lbs but I'm a ball of fury. Don't let anyone make you feel bad. Your muscles may be small but your will must be limitless and aggression like an unwavering tank. That is the only way to stand up to a world that hates us for who we are.

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  • CollegeIsNotAsAwesomeAsIImagin

    My man, you do not need a gym to get "big" neither would you require any supplement, just eat more and start doing the basic training stuff. Its better becuase it conditions your body at the same time that it debelops strenght. You could be small and skinny, large and a bit overweight but if you got some strenght/power you wont be looked at as weak. The thing is that you can look good in either weight category as long as you have some definition on you. For arms just do pullups. Try buying those dumbells and a set of fat gripz to get the forearms. Sure these low lifes can curl 145 but could they even curl 100 with a ticker bar, i dont think so. Just look at some people who do hard labor or sometimes those people who dance or do some stunts. They look great and i bet my life that thy never entered a gym. You really need to consider putting at least 6 hours every week and dedicate them to phisical activity. For both social and health benefits. Sure life is easy this way, but there will be a point later in life where you will regret not ever developing a havit of at least walking..

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  • cookiemonster130

    It's normal to feel bad about your body, but that's because people make you feel that way. Goodluck

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  • AncientWerewolf

    Yo, I get what you mean. I'm in my mid-20's, 5'8" and 105 on a good day. Like myself, you're an ectomorph. Our genetics naturally lean (heavily) towards low weight and bmi. You can't change your genetics, so don't try to be something you're not.

    The real issue, though, isn't your weight but how you look at it. I haven't faced bullying for my weight for at least a decade (while smaller than yourself), including both high school and college. Don't focus on comparisons, but find at least one area to find confidence - they'll respond differently if they see you carrying your head high regardless of your weight.

    If you do want to gain some muscle, know that ectomorphs tend to have slower gains. A pull up bar, dumbbells, and just doing basic body-weight exercises are feasible (and just getting active can help you feel better due to production of happy chemicals in your brain). This will also be helpful as it can also counteract the effects of depression, which is fairly common in skinny people.

    As far as bullying is concerned, most bullies do this because of their own insecurities. As such, they go after the easy targets. This generally tends to be the small, unconfident guys. If they're making you despise yourself, don't even bother trying to appease them. Instead, look for friends who aren't jerks, and don't even bother with frat life. That type of childish response can be even more obvious there.

    As far as the girls, if they can't see who you are inside, frankly you're wasting your time with them. If they're adults, they should have the maturity not to act like children. Look for someone you have something in common with.

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  • abstract08

    I just want you to know that is not normal. And you are not alone. I have been bullied about my weight mostly by family. I'm a guy, 20, 5'4 and 108. No matter how much I eat, I seem to stay the same weight! I've been the same weight for years now. I know how insecure it makes you feel. Worrying about what people are thinking about you and how you look all the time. I don't really have advice as I'm going through the same thing. I would avoid these people if at all possible.

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  • ucipher8

    i didn't care to finish your post, you 5 8. some men are like 5,5 (look at comedian kevin hart)

    Get over yourself or go apeshit on these fools before i start picking on you for being a punk!

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  • Avant-Garde

    It's not normal. Avoid these people if you can and take some martial art classes just in case.

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  • Moneybagschest

    This sounds like high school. I guess high school really never ends.

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  • Theadage

    You won't be fitting in. You'll be working to improve your body and strength. Never let yourself feel "victimized" because there is absolutely nothing wrong with you, and you were never the victim to begin with. They are the victims of their own insecurity/stupidity.

    Insecure immature imbeciles sums up their existence.

    Now you just need to know that it is not your fault.
    They psychologically fucked with you. Same thing happened to me my 6th,7th, 8th, and 9th grade years of school. There was this one girl who just wouldn't leave me alone. She constantly kept fucking with me, telling me shit, and had her friends do the same. The whole school joined in at one point and my confidence crashed to oblivion. I just took everything, and wouldn't speak up for myself. Fast forward to my 11th grade year where I realized that she didn't mean anything to me in my life, so I had no reason to care about her opinions, or those of the tools. I moved on, she sees that, and I secretly found out that everything began because she was jealous that I was popular in the 6th grade. She was also a closet lesbian and I was friends with her crush. Looking back, it's comical.I almost let her control my life...

    Just do what intelligent humans do best and progress. :)
    You seem like a cool person to hang out with btw.

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  • Mlopez0718

    PS; say what i told you^ "stop checking me out faggots" infront of girls aha see if they laugh too like i would lol!

    PPS; I'm pro gay (:

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  • WasThatAMoth

    Well in order to make friends you must have a friend in yourself. You cannot despise who you are; it is who you are. Now if you decide to do something like workout, then do it because you want to. Not because you have to. I have been picked on during school and I was very unhappy for a while. I know how it feels to be ridiculed based on my weight and size

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  • justsomekidfromcanada

    First of all, fuck those guys. They are just immature assholes that will never make it far in life because they don't know how to treat people. Unfortunately now that they have it in your head that you're too skinny, you're never going to be able to get it off your mind. My advice would be to start a diet to gain weight and to hit the gym or even just work out at home. I know it seems weird but I find that for the most part you'll often meet very friendly, helpful people at the gym. Obviously there are still assholes but they are mainly just teenagers that think they're hot shit. Good luck and keep in mind that those people are total assholes.

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  • robbieforgotpw

    I would pay to see those tough guys pinned down and you beef stew them. See benchwarmers?

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  • go take some mma classes and beat the shit out of those douchebags!

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  • dom180

    Find a way to avoid those people. Universities are big places, and you'll be able to find lots of different places to hang out, even if it means going off-campus. Join clubs for people with similar interests to you, because those people are more likely to judge you for your interest than for how you look. I am well skinnier than you are and I have a good friendship circle who doesn't judge me for it; you've just got to learn who to avoid and who to hang around with. Don't change yourself just for the sake of fitting in with superficial people, it's stressful and it isn't worth it.

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  • davesumba

    i haven't really seen or heard from friends of university kids bullying. usually people have matured by then, but if it were to happen, year one would be it. so don't pay any attention to those immature low lifes, and it'll get better. if it's just around your flat, then move, cut the negativity out of your life, there is no need for it.
    be happy with your body, and you will find others that are happy with it as well.

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