Bicurious feelings for just 1 guy
ok so i have been friends with this kid since we were 5 and we did everything together we were like bros. i have had a couple gfs like every couple a months ill get 1 but it ussually only goes as far as making out except i got tit once yay. anyways i havent had a gf in like 6 months and ive been having really sexual feelings towards my friend . is this normal i feel bi curious but i could nvr see myself kissing another man that just gives me chills. and i couldnt date another man cause i think thats f**ked up . i think that when guys are closer than arms length i feel like im gay or sum sh*t. i guess im homophobic but u be the judge or w/e. i get a boner alot when i think of girls i know and girls i coulda banged but i also feel for my friend the same way its confusing. and its ben eating at me for about 2 yrs now im really depressed i thought that i would kill myself if i ever did anything homo cause i couldnt live with myself but than again i think killing urselfs for pussies. im just a confused 17 yr old male. what do u think i should do . IS THIS sh*t NORMAL