Best friend dating ex
Can't believe there is no other story on here about this.
Fell in love with a girl, and she to me apparently. She was the first and only one, it felt epic.
Due to having no experience, she broke up with me and I never really understood why, except for that I am just so inadequate. We used to talk about the deepest things. We never even kissed, but god how i wanted her to know that I would.
A few weeks later she "fell in love" with some complete arrogant a**hole and on my birthday they felt each other up in my room, while I was there, along with several other people.
They broke up after a while for some reason and it made me guiltily happy even though I had tried to convince myself I was over everything.
Time passed and I thought everything was in the past, but now my best mate and her are getting involved. When she isn't with anyone I feel fine and free and over her but as soon as she shows serious affection toward anyone I get dragged back down into the depths.
I feel I am drifting slowly away from any sense of purpose, totally lacking direction, and becoming increasingly insecure.
1. I don't know why I still feel sad when she is getting involved with other guys, I thought I had finally gotten around it but in the back of my mind i accuse myself of living in denial.
2. I don't know whether its worse for the girl whom you loved so purely to get with a complete a**hole or your best mate.