Being this obsessed with social rules
Yesterday things pissed me off than normal. Like how some people don't follow the arrows in a Walmart; they're there for a reason! Or how people don't socially distance and are super close in my space.
To be honest, my own mother pissed me off yesterday. She didn't follow the arrows in the Walmart isles as she said "who cares, no one is watching". Like ummmmm I obviously care! I had to follow her instead of going to the next isle to meet her at the other side (she would say that's ridiculous). I hated it, kept saying "I'm sorry" inside my head, and hoped no one would judge as I would've judged them.
Hell, my own fiance even irritated me! He kept going into random stores in the mall just to talk to people. It irritated my mother too and I went to the mall/Walmart for her. To make someone else wait even if they are there for a reason is plain rude. I told him this and he was like "You know me, I like to talk". Not to mention that he wasn't the quietest in the mall. I felt really embarrassed and had to tell him to shush.
When it comes to me; I like following mall rules and keeping the peace. I strongly dislike breaking the rules and being loud; so much so that I hyperventilate a little. Rule anxiety is to blame of course. To have a sense of control within myself and a social circle is how I keep myself grounded. To take that away from me is how to drive me to the point of insanity.