Being human feels like a performance
Idk it is unnatural. I don't feel connected to it, or to anyone. It's like pretending all the time, it's weird. It's like I'm different from everyone else and i wasn't supposed to be human at all. Like i would be better as a consciousness. Like an alien of sorts. I don't think i feel feelings like everyone else does, they're like, not even that prominent or real until they are unbearably overwhelming. I get overwhelmed by existing in this form. Am i the only one?
Autism or sheltered upbringing.
Well, best make it a good one, then. By throwing yourself into it you may find some very real meaning comes from it
This sounds very human to me. But if you are distraught about it try connecting with nature more. Go on a walk, nurture pets, plant a garden, but most importantly - stop overthinking it and just be.
I'm not autistic, but I can relate.
Yeah im autistic so im never myself I don't even know how to unmask with people since I started when I was a kid and now it just happens. My life is a constant performance like working in customer service except you never get a break even for 5 minutes unless you ever get to completely isolate from all people and not even go outside or have any contact with anyone online or offline. So yeah I kinda know the feeling man.