Been alone a long, long time.

It's more of a question if you like being alone. You say you want no friends but you want to be close with someone, family? a lover? Maybe even raising a family of your own?

I'm a loner and I'm not happy. I love people but I can't handle them after awhile. I'm pretty distant as far as friends go, I'll only talk to you if I need something or if you talk to me. But I care for everyone deeply. I'll tell you what's really funny though. The more happy I am, the more interested I am in the happiness in others and the more I want to hang out with them. And sometimes it works in reverse ;)

I like to be alone, but I don't want to be alone.

Maybe you have a neurological condition of which you're unaware?

Yes i am a big loner that's why i like trolling lmao. I haven't had a girlfriend yet so i try to get attention from them here.

If you're content with being alone, and are comfortable that way, more power to you.
Try not to become a hermit tho, and have some friends you can talk to so you have social interactions. You never know, you might find that special someone that you will share your lonliness with together <3

I consider myself as a loner, too.
I'm assuming I'm much younger than you though. I'm in my mid twenty. I have been alone ever since I went overseas to study, and that was about almost a decade ago. I did still contact my family but somehow I felt some distance with them.

There was time where I asked myself whether I really want to be alone. I actually longing that feeling of intimacy with somebody. But one thing that prevent me to do that is my fear of rejection and fear of intimacy. At first I found that concept of 'fear of intimacy' is quite amusing. But when I did a research myself online, I found out that it does make sense especially when someone has a problem of defining boundary with others. It was also worsened by the fact that I was an approval seeker, to some extent. It may be quite counter intuitive, but the more I'm looking for that approval from others the more I would feel "different" compared to others; thus, creating distance between me and others which lead to my tendency to be alone.

I'm not sure about your situation exactly, but I think it may be a good idea to ask yourselves of what really make you dislike a company.

Since you rock n' rolled?

You and I are very, very different people, that's for sure.
I'm never truly happy alone. I like to say I make a great half a couple.
None of that is to say that your way is wrong. Not at all. But. Yes there is a huge but coming. But you said, "I'll settle for contentment, which is a ways from being happy.", and there's nothing good in that attitude.
Why don't you deserve happiness? Why is your ex-wife your only attempt to find a compatible partner? Especially if you realize that you will never truly be happy alone.
Contentment just doesn't cut it; cows with their cud should be contented. Not people.
IMO, it's time to stand up straight, pull in your tummy and thrust back your shoulders and demand happiness. We all deserve that; each and every one of us.