Bad trip, no longer able to have fun on drugs.

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Okay,
about 2 months ago I blew 2 grams of cocain through out and evening(my first time). Smoked a blunt and hit a bowl a few times (mids). Drank 3 beers and ate and 8th of shrooms.

Everything went so wrong after the shrooms. Like I started getting that body buzz with in minutes it seemed. (typically takes like an 45 min for that to kick in for me).. So I go to the bath room like what the f**k.. Splashing water on my face with my heart racing.. seemed with in minutes of that.. my world was spinning. So I left the party.. walking on the side of a main road.. I began forgetting how to act, how to walk, how to talk. I called my mom freeking out she picked me up.. ((drew cartoon cates for me trying to bring me back from my seriously horrible trip :PP)). but nothing was doing it. I wasn't the same for two weeks. Like depression, thoughts of suicide, I wanted to give up on life.

Sence then I have tryed doing smoking up, drinking, and cocain again. I don't get super depressed after but when I am not sober I am not having fun at all.. My mind is just so concintrated on staying in control of myself.

This worries me. I mean in general I am very social and feel great, it's just that added boost where you feel perfect. I want it again but I keep putting myself through feeling like sh*t and not getting the same results at all.
I would seriously cry if I took ex and didn't get an once of joy from it.

I know this is not normal.
but I didn't see any real type of drug use up here past bud.. I thought it could maybe be relateable to someone, and I was wondering if that fear I have will ever stop haunting me?????

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  • thejazzismine
    14 years ago

    I hear that, my last trip on mushrooms was not pleasant and I will NOT do those again. And NO WAY it was the coke, coke is great, and doesn't skew your psyche like mushrooms, plus adding weed (another psychedelic) could make you think you are worse off than you are.

    You can't blame society for your cravings. Man up and face it that drugs are awesome, addiction sucks, but in moderation everything is so satisfying.

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  • sherry
    13 years ago

    You guys are really f****d! It's great to be sober.

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  • carwreckkids
    15 years ago

    This is actualy very normal indeed. I hate life if im sober. Yeah for the addicts.

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  • lizieralizard
    11 years ago

    um, whats the point of doing drugs u dont even enjoy? I used to enjoy drugs. Now i dont so i dont do them anymore.

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  • scumfuck
    11 years ago

    dude ! i did lsd 3 times it was one of the best experiences of my life. so a few days ago i was hanging out with friends and i ask for a strangers drink so i drink from his beer turns out there was acid in it. i totally freaked cause i was sick at the time and feeling like shit ! if i ever see that guy again i'm gonna fuck him up so bad i loved lsd and now i always think about my bad trip fucking piece of shit retard ! maybe try to stay away from psychedelics i don't even smoke weed anymore just some mdma or speed or something when i go out never tried coke so expensive !

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  • kit-kat-bar
    11 years ago

    You are becoming an addict, good luck with all those great decisions your making and good job to the people getting rich off of your bad behavior.

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  • CDmale4fem
    12 years ago

    There are also those of us that have turned to drugs due to sexual abuse, not feeling loved or even wanted by family, rocky relationships, finances, etc. etc. We all deal with things different ways. I can say I have only done coke, meth and weed. But its our attempts to escape and get into a different mindset and train of thought while trying to forget the, hardships, the pain of lost loves, looking back on the mistakes we each know we have made, and realizing we really screwed up at some point in the pathetic life we are struggling to survive. Myself, I couldnt understand why I was so different and why I had the urge to crossdress, why I had thoughts of oral sex sex and more with a good buddy of mine yrs ago. We dont discuss them for fear the "moral majority" will hear us and light the torches for their witch hunts, when some in society dont live by the same rules and even color outside the lines. All the above leads to depression, and the desire to escape the reality of said depression.

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  • demonspirit17
    13 years ago

    u r an addict my freind thats all

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  • simpleplanftw
    14 years ago

    just altogether STOP taking drugs idiot.

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    Geez just grow up and get a life dope head.

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  • Eljanco
    14 years ago

    Suicide toughts are not bad they are just a way to imagine your life better

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  • drtywiteboy
    14 years ago

    bro, cocaine has chemicals in it that overcharge your brain cells to make you feel happy, but the depression is coming because your brain can not produce the chems it needs for almost two weeks. SLOW DOWN take a month or two off drugs. nothing, no booze, no grass, no heavy narcotics. pick up smoking cigarettes, try to relax, go to work, make your money. after that, just take it easy on them. benders like that will mess you up!

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  • McShave07
    15 years ago

    I reckon you must have started having a bad time on the coke coz there is no way it was the shrooms after a few mins, however they had probably taken hold by the time you left the party and got your mother to pick you up.

    Weed and mushrooms are very psychological drugs and past experiences on them can effect future times. i.e if you have one bad trip on mushrooms the likly hood is your going to have more times like that. Thats what happened to me.

    Not like I'm wanting to preach and say is all bad, fuck that if you get pissed it gets rid of all your paranoia anyway, but weed paranoia is something you'll have to live with.

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    • Modesto
      15 years ago

      Tears!!!
      First off rereading what I wrote.. Goodness sorry about all the mistakes.
      Secondly, Yea I am finding out bud will never be the same.
      I don't think any of it will.
      When I first started doing this it was all new.
      I was open to the effects.
      But through time the more I did.
      The more I sought for some sort of high..
      The more I felt I had a problem.
      I blame society for this!!!
      If I didn't feel that people were looking down on me.
      If I didn't feel my parents shame.
      Then I would still be having that free sprited piece of mind.
      But as you go farther into the drug world.
      It is harder to keep it off your tongue.
      It is harder to keep it a secret.
      The more consumed you seem to get..
      the more people look at you like you have a problem.
      I never crashed. I never got hurt. I only got scared once.. And clearly that is cuase I mixed drugs!!!
      The only time I felt my actions were bad was when my parents found out.
      When some of my friends got angry with me.
      or when the church I use to attend knocked at my door.
      This painted inmage of trash assosicated with drugs is what brought me to become close minded.
      I have done Bud, Ketimine, Ex, Acid, Shrooms, Cocain, and once a pain killer.
      Everything I tryed never hurt me.
      As far as I know.
      Everyting people told me of drugs was wrong.
      It's not as horrible as what it is made to be.
      In moderation the things I have tryed are wonderful.
      They bring you closer to others.
      Open your mind to new thoughts.
      Bring you a different kind of joy never felt before.
      I wish I could allow myself to continue with these things but I can't.
      I can not be open minded to it.
      Becuase now my thoughts are always consumed about doing what right in the eyes of others.
      Now that I am a little older I am craving to do the normal thing.
      Make my parents happy.
      When I slip up.. I only consintrate on slipping up.. not having a good time.
      Sucks.. but I can't help it.
      :(.
      but it was great while it lasted!!

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  • lovec15
    15 years ago

    Yeah I know where you're comin from It sucks to not be able to have fun with gettin high. And like carwreckkids said Yay for th addicts.

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