Aspergers?

Throughout my life, I have had a fear and general hatred of people and social situations. When I was little, I didn't talk to anyone, not even my mom, dad, or siblings. I didn't like being with other kids, and had trouble making friends. I basically would spend all of my time in the library or outside with my dog in the park, imagining things or just thinking. I would check out maybe 7-10 books at a time for when the library closed so that I would have something to do. A lot of kids made fun of me and thought I was weird because I used "big" words a lot and didn't know a lot about popular culture (I wasn't allowed to watch tv and we didn't have a computer). It's now my freshman year of college and I have been able to talk to and meet a lot of people, which has helped me get over a lot of my anti-social tendencies. But sometimes I still feel really angry at people in general, and just don't feel like dealing with them. So I'll stay in my room and sit by myself in the cafeteria, and try to avoid everyone, which makes it awkward when people come looking for me or make me move to their lunch table or whatever. I think that I might be a little crazy or something, and I don't think that the way I act is normal, but I don't know how to help it. I heard about aspergers syndrome and I started researching it, and if I have it it would definitely explain a lot. Sorry that this was so long, but I just need to hear from other people.

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  • Corleone

    Don't ask us, visit a psychologist. Way too many people diagnose themselves with aspergers. Maybe you do have aspergers, but we can't be sure.

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  • MrsBailey9

    Aspergers can be easily diagnosed at any age. Aspergers can be difficult to diagnose at any age. Yes I know they contradict each other, but that is my point. There is a fine line between being anti-social and "having" Aspergers Syndrome. I highly recommend seeking out professional advice on this. Yes, in MY professional opinion it "sounds" like Aspergers, but I would need to know more of your history and run some tests to confirm or deny it. My question for you is this: Once you find out whether or not you have Aspergers Syndrome, what next? I mean to say, will you actively work with someone to develop better social/coping skills? Will you accept that this is who you are and embrace it? If it turns out not to be Aspergers, what then?

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  • Legion

    That sounds a lot like me. Except i used to be very social, but i would tend to make as many enimies as i did friends. Believe me, its hard to talk to people when you cant exactly tell what they are thinking. I sometimes got mad over jokes because I mistakenly thought they were serious. I have gotten better about that though.

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  • There is nothing wrong with you. You are intelligent and emotionally self-reliant. You are better off than most of humanity.

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  • playgroundhound

    i am this way and its so painful. im glad to know that im not the only one. :(

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  • fluffball888

    My teenage son was diagnosed at age 5. I think you'll be surprised at how much support there is out there.

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  • mtnw

    you may have it, so maybe you should get checked out. i think a little help could make things easier for you:)

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  • Xhaos

    I have it and it's nothing to worry about. Get some help about it cos it help alot

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    • Hmmaybe

      I have asperger's and from that description it sounds like you are too. I'm also very bad at social situations. I do have some friends but I make friends very slowly, so I generally don't have any for a while when I go to a new school.

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  • moonlightshield

    I have Asperger's too! Don'tyou worry, i completly understandyour situationand once in a while i have the same problems(not currently cause i'vebeen forcing myself to "be normal")

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  • Lol

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  • Wuggums47

    You are very normal. I have aspbergers syndrome too and can relate to most of what you've said, except being angry with people. For some reason I never really get angry.

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  • TotalAspie

    I'm an aspie, and I was quite similar at both younger ages in college ages. I figured that I didn't relate well to people my age as a kid because my dad was over the top as to how people were to be treated. (And would force maturity on me to the point of sodomizing me with it.) Now I think being an aspie also had have played a part.

    I can also relate to the college situation. I remember the short time I was in, I felt a sense of intimidation whenever other people would express kindness to me. Sometimes I still do, unless I'm out at the clubs, then I unexpectedly become more receptive to social contact.

    Hopefully you have all the good things associated with Asperger's. (Namely, gifts in art, music, science, and technology.)

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  • theAnomilyGuy

    I 2nd MaskedGunmans diagnosis.

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  • vegan

    Go for an official diagnosis. Then specialists can help you to improve your life. It worked for me.

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  • BlueAlice

    I have it myself (diagnosed at 2, wasn't aware of it till 7/8).

    Reading your post, I was - and still am to a small extent - just like you

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  • b454

    I forget what season, but Heather on Americas next top model had it and she was awesome! She was so beautiful and did so well in that competion. I love her

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  • alv1592

    i was diagnosed at 8 or 9. but it's a very mild case. i used to need help in school a lot, and i had an aide in the classroom, but when i got to high school i did much better on my own. i have always been shy, but never anti-social..i've always talked to people when they talked to me. i have some problems focusing sometimes, but i take celexa and it helps.

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  • kittyjibblets

    i was never diagnosed with aspergers but i can sorta relate to what you're saying. my room is in my parents basement and i almost never leave it unless i have to go to work or an appointment of some kind. i love being alone in my room and having me time. ppl i know call me a hermit and antisocial. sometimes though, i do feel social and decide to go hang with friends but the whole time i'm thinking, man i wish i was sitting alone in my room at home.
    i guess what i wanna know is do u actually enjoy being alone and antisocial? is it a choice? or is it because of a fear?
    either way they are both things you can live with you just have to find a way that works best for you. there's plenty of help out there and remember you're not alone there are many out there just like you. hope you figure things out and good luck!

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