Aspergers?
Throughout my life, I have had a fear and general hatred of people and social situations. When I was little, I didn't talk to anyone, not even my mom, dad, or siblings. I didn't like being with other kids, and had trouble making friends. I basically would spend all of my time in the library or outside with my dog in the park, imagining things or just thinking. I would check out maybe 7-10 books at a time for when the library closed so that I would have something to do. A lot of kids made fun of me and thought I was weird because I used "big" words a lot and didn't know a lot about popular culture (I wasn't allowed to watch tv and we didn't have a computer). It's now my freshman year of college and I have been able to talk to and meet a lot of people, which has helped me get over a lot of my anti-social tendencies. But sometimes I still feel really angry at people in general, and just don't feel like dealing with them. So I'll stay in my room and sit by myself in the cafeteria, and try to avoid everyone, which makes it awkward when people come looking for me or make me move to their lunch table or whatever. I think that I might be a little crazy or something, and I don't think that the way I act is normal, but I don't know how to help it. I heard about aspergers syndrome and I started researching it, and if I have it it would definitely explain a lot. Sorry that this was so long, but I just need to hear from other people.