As a woman, is it normal to imagine myself as a male crossdresser?
I was born a woman but my whole life I've felt like I'm male but I like dressing up as a woman. One time I wore boxers under a long skirt and I felt so whole it was amazing. When I'm feeling my most masculine I like to play-act female gender performance and feel feminine sexual power. But it always feels like something external to me, like a pretty hat I can take off. It's fun to wear but under it all I am still a man. Except I was born a woman? I don't like looking like a man (I have a androgynous figure and a masculine face) always either, because it feels like I'm not succeeding my goal to be man who looks like a woman. Am I trans or do gender experiences transcend cultural binaries?