Appreciation.

Dude, feel however you feel. Other people's suffering doesn't make your feelings any less valid. If everybody shoved all their negative feelings to the side because somebody's worse off than them, only the most miserable person in the world would be allowed to express their pain.

Talk through your problems as much as you need to, and if you find yourself revisiting things over and over without making any additional progress, then it's time to think about something else for a while. Don't get stuck in the trap of feeling guilty about not feeling grateful enough, though. There's nothing good there.

I hope that helps.

My feelings were always bottled up my rage comes out in my stories .

It's completely normal. In my life, I apply it like this:

I used to complain all the time. I mean ALL the time. About everything. EVERYTHING. But then slowly, and surely, I began to look around me, and I realized that I was a very, VERY fortunate person.

I am grateful for life that I have, and the people in it. I try not to complain, but I still do, it's just human nature to wish things were even better than they already are.

So long as you remain appreciative of what you have, and not lose sight of it, then you're golden.

And yet, the need to move forward is equal to the need to appreciate life in the present. They are balancing forces.

Thoughtfulness of the past, never forgetting.
Appreciative of the current, never losing sight.
Longing for the future, never being afraid.

Yup, that's about it. ^_~

A lot of what you've written reflects how I feel, and for 1 thing that I've noticed, change doesn't happen over night. It does help to keep working at it though, and then you can become better in this area or the next; always some more betterment to be had.

To me, life sucks and that's the end of it. I'm dragging my feet to almost anything I do, and it just seems like 1 fucking grind after another. Sure, my life ain't that bad, but that's still how I feel: The doctor tells me I'm dying tomorrow and I'd almost be ready to thank him gratefully for the news.

In the mean time, I do have decently happy moments. Forever floating in the winded farts which brings the shit a rolling down. lol

This^

I've been feeling the same way lately. When i complain about my life or feel bad for myself i feel like some people think i have it made. But others feel i deserve better. Kinda makes me feel like a prude when i complain about anything. The problem is most people think they have the worst life so they make people like us feel bad for not appreciating this "perfect" life. But we do appreciate our lives, we just see the need for change.

i dont understand except the last sentence , which i like, good for you