Appreciating inner beauty? possibly? is it normal?
i've always liked unconventional things, but as i get older, i find my tastes have really changed. i've never gone for the stripper-girl look.... with the overly done, plastic looking makeup, but now i find that for me to find someone attractive, i really have to see something special about them. it can't just be a cool/punky or gothy look. i need to be able to see - cheesy as it sounds - a sould, or some sense of real beauty or humanity in their eyes. even with celebrities (few and far between though they may be... the ones with some spark of humanity or real inner-beauty). for example, my friends and i were watching some fan-made youtube vid the other day, and there were a bunch of girls that i probably would have considered hot when i was younger, but i thought they were all disgusting. then, the next vid was 4non blondes, and i realized that though she may not be classically beautiful, linda perry has a brillaint smile, and expressive eyes, and i found myself instantly attracted to her.
this does not only extend to physical appearances. i find that no matter how talented someone is, or how perfect their pitch, i really don't care for singers who lack emotion in their voice. i used to think kathleen battle was amazing, and i suppose she is, but i don't care for her music anymore. now i far prefer neil young just because you can tell he feels every word he sings.
i don't know if it's inner beauty exactly, or soul, or what it is.... but some people just have a quality that makes you think they're actually real.... actually human.... that they actually feel.... or is it just me?