Any one else like this?
ok so im 18 years old, male and i used to smoke weed ALOT. back in high school now when i smoke i seem to get really awkward and shy even around my best friends i think that everything i say or do is stupid and all my friends are thinkin in their heads that im so weird and that makes me even more awkward . but thats not it when i smoke by myself all i can think of even if im watching tv is how weird and akward i am around people even when im not high and how i hate myself for it but the weird thing is i dont have these self hateful thoughts unless i smoked. so any advise or helpful words? thnx