Anxiety
I get really nervous before things such as individual sports like athletics, triathlons etc, and also speech competitions, and even when having friends around.
I don't like to fail myself, so i guess you could say thats a reason why I get so nervous.
But what happens when I get nervous is that I vomit, so instead of diahrea or something I spew, which can be really embarrasing,and people are always like are you ok? which is really annoying. I think I do it though so i have an excuse if I lose, so i can say I was spewing.
But usually even though I spew before, during and after my race, or before speeches, I usually always win, however lately it has started affecting me so bad, that it makes me fail coz i can't keep running because of it as i dry-retching in the race.
I've been to a psychiatrist and they gave me tips, but they don't work, coz they are mind games and my mind knows how to beat them.
Is it normal for me to be this anxious, and do you have any advice?