Annoyed with myself for 'crushes'
I'm a teenage female.
I wish I could turn my emotions off. I am attracted to those I really shouldn't be, and while I know it is normal to 'crush' on people, is it normal to get annoyed with myself?
I don't ever act on my feelings, or show them. I feel immature and perhaps weak for thinking about someone all the time I'm unoccupied, instead of the things that matter.
Unfortunately, my crushes are those I cannot avoid; for instance, someone I've known for two years and for whom my feelings have not disappeared...
I am not interested in promiscuity. I am only ever interested in long-term relationships. For this reason, I want to experience true love.
I think I'm scared of rushing into things - my feelings are intense, and I truly care, but sometimes I get lonely, and that could make me vulnerable.