Am stuck emotionally! is it normal

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Hello!
I was wondering if this is normal and I dont know but its so deeply into my soul that I cant get out of it...its been 14 years!

I was in college and had a good set of friends, but somehow one of my close friend use to insult me. And frankly everyone thought I was pretty but she would just turn her face otherways if anyone would compliment. I use to feel very hurt! Even on long trips she would ignore me and go with someone else. I stopped communicating,but even when we just happened to meet once she just snubbed me. I dont know for what I took all this sh*t from her. It use to deeply sadden me, and now when I lookk back and see I was much more good looking than her, probabably she didn't want me to explore my looks...

Later on another friend of mine betrayed me very badly. She not only use to back bite about me with my best friend but use to make plans with her about outings and inform me later. I was the one who introduced my best friend to her, she just took her away from me. I was deeply hurt as it created a distance between me and my best friend (whom I considered my soul mate).

I have been hurt by both incidences and the most the second one. With all this I feel I have no emotions left, for a person like me who believed in soul mates and true friendships, I have not been able to have any relations with anyone after that.

Its not only affected my personal life but professionally as well. I feel its hampered my professional choices, I use to be an extrovert and loved going out. But with all my experiences I stay more home and like leading a spiritual life.

I just feel so lost all the time and I feel I tend to make wrong choices!!!

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  • peterr
    10 years ago

    Find a guy to suck your cock.

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  • SilentJ
    14 years ago

    Well,

    It looks like you have a bad luck of choosing your friends.

    What it looks like is that you are choosing "friends", that are completely jealous of either the way you look or act. If they are that jealous to where they need to be doing things like that to you, then you need to find another friend.

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  • Lucid24
    14 years ago

    I had a friend like that, she used to give me CDs with things like "I hate you and your ugly" written on them for my birthday. Then fill them with songs she deemed better than anything I could find. I ended up telling her in an email how I felt eventually... before then though it used to eat me up alot. Girls for the most part can be really catty, but if you look in the right places you will find those that have more empathy and compassion for their own friends. Don't let people step on you in the mean time. If they are being rude just let them know its not appreciated and if you have to, drop them. You don't need negative people in your life, no one does.

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  • Keillor
    14 years ago

    From my experience, that's how "normal" women work. Constant gossip and such to keep the drama level high. Don't let it bug you too much.

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  • Kubblex
    14 years ago

    It is very difficult to be friends with someone and have them constantly overshadowing you. She probably became fed up with constantly watching as everyone was paying their attention to you.
    If you would consider yourself as being a show off, them I could understand that she wold want to do her own thing, and hopefully find a way to become more noticed by herself, and she may see that you had burdened her in that way
    Either that, or your friend thought they could use you to become more noticed, and when it didn't work, they blamed it on you.

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  • Battle
    14 years ago

    You should have slapped them lol.

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  • ven067
    15 years ago

    Hmmm well you probably intimidated them as someone who was better than them in looks, money, material things, etc..
    They might've felt uncomfortable around you so thats why they acted that way. You were probably too good for them, or they just didn't plain like you.
    You can try to find new friends, go to the parks, gyms, or wherever you enjoy. You will find people that enjoy those things too and you can be friends with them.

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  • Cudlez
    16 years ago

    i like you.. alot.. for real.. your like.. double my age.. but i like you alot..

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    • sushom101
      16 years ago

      hey! thanks...u like me for what i wrote???

      anyways nice to hear that...

      thanks again

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