Am i too judgmental and angry for retail?
I've concluded that I'm an extremely angry and judgmental person. But you wouldn't know that unless you pretty much lived with me, that's how little people know about how angry I can be.
I work part time at a discount retail store, and I've recently come to the conclusion that I'm just... well, I feel like I'm just way too judgmental to work at retail. Most of the time, the bosses at retail give "the customer is always right" BS and your suppose to be as nice to people as you can be... at least, in the store I work at anyway.
And I am nice to the customers, I really am. But in my head, if a customer does something, or says something that I think is stupid or ridiculous, I'm extremely harsh and critical. I'm just THINKING these things, I'm not SAYING them, but I'm THINKING them.
For example, when I'm behind the register, and a customer comes up, I've scanned the item, gone through the annoying procedure of asking them if they're apart of our loyalty program, and it turns out that they forgot their credit card, or their wallet in the car. And in my head, I'm thinking "How much of an idiot can you be to forget something as important as your wallet?". Or when I'm asked "Does your store track credit cards"?, and I'm thinking "Are you serious? This is a DISCOUNT store, not a Macy's". Or when I'm putting a pair of boots in a customer's bag, she complains that the box isn't closed all the way, and I'm thinking "Are you serious? You can't be serious, can you?" Or when it's eight at night and I'm judging mothers for bringing their little kids out so late when they it's obvious that they're tired and they just want to go home. Or when my manager screws up the time when I'm supposed to be working, and I automatically get pissed off and immediately thinks he's incompetent when he's a really nice guy, and it turned out to just be a mistake.
I'm beginning to think that it might eventually affect my performance at work; I'm afraid that I'll be letting my anger slip through when I'm talking with my managers and with the customers, and I'm afraid I'll just blow up at a customer or one of my managers one day and get fired. When I'm home, I just spew whatever's on my mind, and I'm not afraid to someone know when I'm angry at them. But I know that's unacceptable when it comes to working. But I know the day will eventually come when my anger and judgmentalness will get the better of me and get me fired; maybe not this job that I currently have, but one day.
TL;DR I feel that I'm too negative, angry, and critical, and it might get me fired one day. is it normal that I think this will eventually happen one day and that I have a strong feeling my emotions will get the better of me at work (Which is one of my worst nightmares)?