Am i the bad guy?

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I have been with my boyfriend going on 5 years now, we are great together and I love him tremendously. About 2 years ago now one of my best friends started dating his brother and they've been happy ever since.
Recently the four of us took a vacation together for her birthday and I had a bit of a drunken outburst.
I fully well know that I should be all for them being together and I realize that my feelings are irrational to some extent but I can't help it. I do not like them dating, her and I used to be great friends but not so much since they've been together. I feel like there is no possible way we can be the same friends as we were because she tells him EVERYTHING. I can't trust her anymore. I feel uneasy and on edge around them all the time, like I'm being fake.
My boyfriend and I will be getting married soon and chances are they will be too. Sometimes you can just tell. I feel horrible for saying this but I don't want her as my sister-in-law. I hate hearing that she's hanging around my mother-in-law.
I've been holding these feelings in for 2 years and finally one night when we were all out and drinking I blurted out these feelings to her and she was balling! Balling to the extent of where you would have thought someone died.
I never meant to hurt her or anyone, I apologized the next morning, but I know it will never be the same. The two of them think down on me now and there really is nothing I can do at this point about it.
They make me feel like like the worst person, like I really said something so bad but I was just speaking my truth and I guess they couldn't handle it.

Am I really that awful?
What can I do to move forward?
I've had these horrible feelings of anxiety about it ever since and would really appreciate some perspective.

Thank You.

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Comments ( 11 )
  • Aries
    8 years ago

    I tried to find a different way to put this but I think the earlier comments sum it up . You need to grow up and I say this as gentle as I can . You should be happy for her if she actually meant as much as you say she did . She hasn't done anything wrong and you can't be upset with her based on your own self absorbed reasons .. friend ship isn't defined based on the time you spend together , this is how children base their friend ships and priority . I think you need to embrace her happiness and see it as a way to become closer , enjoy the time you do spend with her and stop regretting the time you don't ... you have your own boyfriend / soon to be husband and life to worry about anyways .

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  • peterr2
    8 years ago

    Do you like it up the ass?

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  • Darkoil
    8 years ago

    I don't exactly see what the problem is?

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  • dirtybirdy
    8 years ago

    I agree with the above statement. Grow up.

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  • mlbryan44
    8 years ago

    Suck a cock as a way of making amends or chew the lady out. You know you want to eat some cunt, always have, so do it.

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  • VinnyB
    8 years ago

    Yes, as the person who erupted into the drunken rant, clearly you are the bad guy here.

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  • GiveMeAFuckingNameAlready!
    8 years ago

    No, Im the bad guy.

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  • JD777
    8 years ago

    Grow up.

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    • [Old Memory]
      8 years ago

      Damn .. thanks for the 'constructive criticism'.
      Haven't you ever felt a way you couldn't control?

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      • JD777
        8 years ago

        You said in your post, "I was just speaking my truth and I guess they couldn't handle it." Guess you can't handle it when someone else speaks the truth to you. Think about it............

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      • dirtybirdy
        8 years ago

        You're jealous. You can control that.

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