Am i socially retarded
Hello, ever since I was born I have not being an outgoing person in any way and a in the last 4 years ive had about 5 panic attacks. Lately ive been noticing things about myself that I seemed to have been oblivious to before such as.. when I notice people staring at me I turn red and begin to sweat and almost get thrown into a panic attack, usually people dont notice because I go out of my way to escape to a restroom or something of the sort. Even in class if a teacher would call on me for an answer I could feel all those eyes of the students on me and then I could feel the heat of embarassment on my face. But why would this situation even cause for embarassment? Does anyone else experience this? Sometimes friend who I am completely comfortable with will aproach me in conversation and even then I feel the panic! Its even worse when people point it out because then it just makes me sweat more and I can feel mr ears go ablaze with humiliation. During oral presentations for school I distinctly remember one time I had to run out of the class room mid-presentation because I felt like I was suffocating and I could feel everyone staring at me wondering what the hell was going on. Not only that but when I enter a store or the gym I go to my eyes water so much because I feel so self-conscious I cant keep eye contact with anyone for more than 5 seconds without my eyes glazing over with water or my face not going red. What is wrong with me? I am becoming more and more introverted as I stress over my weird symptoms and avoid anything that includes being directly involved with people and it is taking its toll emotionally. Why cant I just have a conversation with some without feeling like im going to have an ashma attack? But even when I feel brave and want to converse with people I never know what to say and always try to come up with interesting topics. Whats wrong with me..help