Am i socially retarded

Hello, ever since I was born I have not being an outgoing person in any way and a in the last 4 years ive had about 5 panic attacks. Lately ive been noticing things about myself that I seemed to have been oblivious to before such as.. when I notice people staring at me I turn red and begin to sweat and almost get thrown into a panic attack, usually people dont notice because I go out of my way to escape to a restroom or something of the sort. Even in class if a teacher would call on me for an answer I could feel all those eyes of the students on me and then I could feel the heat of embarassment on my face. But why would this situation even cause for embarassment? Does anyone else experience this? Sometimes friend who I am completely comfortable with will aproach me in conversation and even then I feel the panic! Its even worse when people point it out because then it just makes me sweat more and I can feel mr ears go ablaze with humiliation. During oral presentations for school I distinctly remember one time I had to run out of the class room mid-presentation because I felt like I was suffocating and I could feel everyone staring at me wondering what the hell was going on. Not only that but when I enter a store or the gym I go to my eyes water so much because I feel so self-conscious I cant keep eye contact with anyone for more than 5 seconds without my eyes glazing over with water or my face not going red. What is wrong with me? I am becoming more and more introverted as I stress over my weird symptoms and avoid anything that includes being directly involved with people and it is taking its toll emotionally. Why cant I just have a conversation with some without feeling like im going to have an ashma attack? But even when I feel brave and want to converse with people I never know what to say and always try to come up with interesting topics. Whats wrong with me..help

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  • heckyea10

    It's called social anxiety. I had it. It was hard, but I beat it. You should go see a psychologist or psychiatrist... They really really help, and trust me, it's sooo worth it!

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  • Uzzie101

    You better go to a pychologist. NOT a pycharist, they'll just fry your brain.

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  • regisphilbin

    everyone faces anxiety sometimes, just do what feels natural and you'll be fine.

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  • Mekkars

    Take breaths between what you say then I think you will be fine.

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  • epo58

    quit doing drugs.

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  • myweirdself16

    try not to care what people think of you. i know, because one time i had to do a presentation in front of my crush, and i kept thinking he was going to laugh at me or something. try (imagining?) what you're going to do if someone talks to you.

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  • jasonapple

    ur not being spontaneous. Start with the people ur closest to and practice saying the first thing that comes into ur head. Ur just nervous cause you haven't got a good instinct of how people are going to react in a social situation. Think of something you would really like to share with someone or something you think is important. If it was like the environment or something and you met someone from greenpeace it would be easy because of common interests if you get what I mean. I think u are this way because you haven't worked out what is important to you as a person and ur going on what u think others want to hear instead of what you really think and what you really want to say.

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  • Carolinne

    I don't know what you think i said, but im sure you misunderstood .-.

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  • Carolinne

    I can write the same story... I think we are in a dead end.

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  • lalala13

    You seriosly need some profesional help, no its not normall...

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  • katie223

    You have extreme social anxiety. You need to get help as soon as possible or its only going to get worse and you are going to become more and more miserable. The only way to fix it is to go to a psychologist. They really are not bad at all! What you have is exactly what they are ment for. At your stage you should probably be on medication for anxiety. By going to a psychologist is how you can get medication. They will diagnose you they WILL fix your problems!

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  • needadvice

    Wow, this is seriously what I'm going through right now.. I could have written this exact story. I'm trying to find a way to get over it as well. It's really affecting my life :( I even feel nervous around my close friends now, whom I never felt shy around before. I also have that problem of not knowing what to say!! It's like when I'm talking to someone I all of a sudden turn dumb.. haha. :( What makes it worse is I'm looking for a job right now, and just the thought of conversing with all these new employees/customers is making me have a panic attack. I hope we can get through this :( ..

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    • sasquatch1992

      ive been looking for a job too but not putting in any effort because customer service scares the shit out of me, caroline im a girl lol. but yeah even when my mom talks to me i freak! but im out of high school now and just kind of isoloating myself to avoid this i dont want to see a psychologist thats so embarassing. are there any natural remedies or steps i can take?

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      • OnlyTheTruth

        I dont understand why people see psychologists as a negative thing. They're there to make you feel more comfortable and help you. It's like having a really good friend that will listen to Everything that you want to say without being judgmental. Which can be liberating...

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  • sasquatch1992

    is there any way to deal with it without the use of a psychiatrist?

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    • OnlyTheTruth

      A general dr... they can discuss and of your symptoms with you and help decide the best way to deal with it. I could be by seeing someone (like a psychologist or a counselor), or medication... just a few options..

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  • jrphotographer

    I turn red sometimes too, but not that extreme... Oddly enough though I am totally fine with presentations. Try taking a deep breath and just don't worry about what they're thinking. :)

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  • That_Guy_From_The_Party

    Do like me, just stop giving a shit about everybody around you.

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