Am i racist? :/ or is feeling like this normal?
I'm not saying I purposely bash people - I find cool that at the lunch table where I sat last year, the friends we had belonged to everything - there was an italian, a black person, a mexican, a blond boy, more than a few glasses wearers, a ginger, an asian, a christian, a jew, some atheists, gays, bis, and altogether we were one of the geek tables. We're like the frickin' U.N. of lunch. And we all made jokes about eachother, for example I've drawn a few swastikas in their schoolbooks from time to time, and we always played around.
I once said to my Dominican friend, whom I joke as a Mexican, "Well, SOMEONE woke up on the wrong side of the border this morning!", and well I'm sure you get the gist.
We all made jokes in good taste (though some not) and we never took it too far. So I'm definitely not against any race, or am I?
Well for one, I have always, ALWAYS disses Christians. Though I don't say it publicly as I don't want to offend the close friends of mine that are, possibly just a what...1/1 joke with an atheist friend. I have no idea why, and I truly do feel really bad to say this, but there are just one...possibly two, races that I just cannot STAND. No, I don't act mean to them. There was this one girl belonging to that race that I knew for only one week - though I introduced myself and I had been kind.
But that's the thing. That's the only race I'm hostile to (in my mind) at first, and where it truly DOES depend on the girl at heart - she, for example, happened to be a nice, quiet girl.
And no, it's not like I kept my eyes on her or anything, waiting for her to do something. But it's just the general race of hers, overall that I thought, I dislike them. Not the individual but just the whole race.
It may seem odd, could this be what my race is? It'd be cool if an ancestor or something had er...'gotten into' me, in a sense. And no. I do not joke about that race, because any 'negative' comment I'd make on them would be most possibly true. So I joke with my black friends, especially on MSN,
FRIEND: "Lol okay."
ME: "Kkk."
FRIEND: "You suck XD"
But it's all in good taste, and I/we never take it too far. I'm mostly white (italian/teeny 2% German), and some black (barbados around 20%). I don't care for my race and I wouldn't wish to be any other. Honestly it's irrelevant to me, not like I live at either of those places anywhozers.
Wow I get off topic.
But yeah. Your opinions? Am I racist for hating the one race? And if you're curious, the race I 'dislike', I have not mentioned at all throughout the story. If you're curious, ask and perhaps I'd reply?