Am i psycho i have so many ocd habits
I have so many OCD habits. I peel a pinky-nail sized scab on my head (covered by hair) every other day, I got hit in the head 15 years ago and I still have the scab to this day because I have never allowed it to heal. I work out 1.5 hours a day and do 1000-2000 crunches a day (I have no body fat and I am a 19 yer old female). I shop every day and am beginning to have a lot of clutter from products and material items.... and I am a serial kleptomaniac, I am not happy unless I have stolen a bunch of things, like makeup, clothing, etc - stuff I don't need even. The thing is that I have a lot of money though!. I get depressed often. I go online every day and buy things online every night. I sleep from 6 am to 2 pm every day. I work only on Fridays and Saturdays as a dancer, and I bring in about 2-4k on Fri/Sat alone. I am a dancer because I am insecure and think I'm not attractive unless men ogle me. Guys tell me I'm beautiful/pretty all the time but I don't see it. I am lonely when I'm not at the club working. I don't hang out with friends. I drink too much, and I have a boyfriend who is crazy bout me despite all these flaws. Oh ya I eat extremely spicy food. Like 10x what a normal person can handle. Imagine dumping in 2 tablespoons of dried hot pepper flakes in a bowl of soup and a tsp of hot sauce. Am I absolutely insane?
I have 20 drinks per week by the way.
I am on academic probation because of my low GPA This is seriously my life. Please don't be mean but honesty is appreciated.