Am i obsessed, or am i in love?
There have been many women I have been attracted to in my young life. I've only ever had the balls to ask two out before, but these two were extremely special to me. Of course I was rejected by both of these women. What struck me as weird though was that after looking back on those two I realized I felt the exact same way about them. We'll call the first one Anon 1 and the second Anon 2.
I met Anon 1 in 2015, and we were close friends up till May 2018 when I asked her out. Before the rejection of Anon 1, every time I saw her my mouth would salivate, my stomach and heart would fill with something that made me warm and happy, and it kinda felt like I was in water. I interpreted this as love. After her rejection I'm sure I still love her, but now as a friend.
I met Anon 2 in 2016, and we were never very close friends. We talk sometimes when we see each other in passing. However, my mouth still watered when I saw her, and I had the weight of something on my shoulders, and I grew goats legs and wobbled like I had. I asked Anon 2 out in November 2018.
Now looking back I can see the similarities in these very different people. This made me question myself a lot. I know for a fact that I love Anon 1, but I hardly knew Anon 2 and felt the same. Is what I'm feeling insane obsession, or am I just in love with two people?
Undecided\ | 3 | |
No | 4 | |
Yes | 3 |