Am i normal for liking this girl?
I should start by saying I'm not very experienced in relationships not having had very many of my own, but I would like to think I have good common sense. In other circumstances, friends in relationships oddly come to me for advice. Anyways... I met this girl at work, lets call her Jane. Jane is a 22 year old single mom with a pretty cute kid but an unfortunately crazy father (out of the picture). Jane and I became pretty good friends through work, flirting and tickling, and I started hanging out with her after work. At first just casually, but then she quit and in order for us to keep hanging out (which she wanted) things had to progress to something else.
And so I began to go over to her place to hangout and watch movies. Things went slowly, her being a single mom n' all I understood. My mother was also a single mom. I'm not going to lie, I did enjoy the role I had of maybe new dad. You might say I have somewhat of a hero complex, and we seemed to click; the way things were going made it seem like this could me a makeshift family.
To make a long story short, after seeing her for several months after a long friendship she inexplicably ended our relationship for someone else, quoting a lack of spark as the cause. I didn't see it coming at all and it really, really messed me up. We didn't speak for a long while after that, probably a year. And after feeling depressed and inadequate for a long while I'd like to think I moved on, more or less. I kept this annoying habit of looking to see if it was her red car driving by... Don't ask me, couldn't shake it.
Not too long ago we saw eachother, and after an awkward coffee she apologized for what happened but had no further explanation as to what exactly was the reason (beyond this other man and lack of "spark"). Her answer is literally "I don't know". It's pretty infuriating to have any sort of progression in conversation let alone a friendship after what's happened if that's the answer. Yet I consciously go back to see her. I like her and I don't know why I can't not like her. I feel like I'm in the exact same spot as last time, and I am incredibly anxious of the fact that things could end up just like they did before; with me incredibly hurt and her with someone else.
Deja Vu is what comes to mind a lot, but I have these feelings that I just can't shake and I don't know what to do! I almost want to try some sort of desperate Jerry Macguire but this is real life and I would definitely fuck that up.
If you've taken the time to read all this, you're a saint, and I really appreciate ANYTHING you have to say.