Am i in love?

Ok I'm "ivy" I'm a 15 year old girl.
At the time I was 14. It was October 2016 and my brothers friend I'll call him "ted" my brother I'll call him "Ching" so Ching was out really late one night and I asked him where he was. He responded with "my friend ted" then he and I were talking and Ching had told me that ted can sing and the he has music. I was all sorts of excited! I was thinking "omg I need to met him!" So the next day, my brother hung out with ted again, and my brother walked though the front door and said "ted is waiting for you." I'm like•~•" whyyyy?"he then tells me to go out side and met ted. So At the time i had friends over and they came with me. There was 3 of them. We go out I met him.(he's gorgeous btw) I'm like thinking "dis boi can sing?!):,) then I was like "what the f am I gonna say?) so then I say" you sing?" He is like "um I guess?;)" at this point my heart dropped. I say (I'm laughing rn thinking of this) so sing.😂🤷🏼‍♀️He's like uhh how about you give me your snapchat. So I ran back inside to get pen and paper I wrote down my sc. I come back(thinking he's gone😂🤷🏼‍♀️) he's still there and I hand him the paper. And say "ok you have to send that"( omg I think back at this and just smile):,( anyway then Ching goes back out with ted and then that morning my brother comes to me and said that ted wants my number.(which makes no sense since I gave him my Snap.🙄🙄🙄anyway. Lol so I'm like" well give it to him!"(lol lol) he's like um ok.... so we started texting;))))) and he's asking for my IG. At the time I was locked out of mine so I tell him that and he's like oh That's fine.(I still gave it to him.) anyway we finally got to hangout. I was super nervous and excited. We went to this movie together with like 9273773838390 peeps😂😂 and my friends and brother and my brothers girlfriend, took up the whole row of seats. Yeah..lol so me and ted had to sit in the back.(Lol I'm cracking up again lol lol) ok so we got to the top of the movie. It's vary vary vary awkward... so the movie starts. Me and him had one popcorn and one drink. Oh boy it was so awkward...... anyway. So it's like 10 minutes into the movies and (I'm literally reliving every rn and imma cry.) he like put his hand out for me to hold it, i like(lol lol) slap it😂🤷🏼‍♀️I didn't know what he wanted!!(lol lol lol) ok so then he looks at me and puts he's hand out again and I'm like ohhhhh😂😂I felt so dumb in that moment. So he held my hand for like 30/40 minutes. Like literally almost the whole movie. My hand was sweating and like I was holding on to long😂🙄 oh I don't think I told you he's 19. Yes 19 ant the time I was 14. I look older but keep that in mind. The. Movie ends and we walk down to see our friends and my sister who had also tagged along, was like "OOOOOOOooo omg what where you guys doing!!"(lol lol) she was 13 at the time so just little sister stuff. So after that,we hung out in the parking lot for a bit with my brother, then when home. Ted has his own car so we just when back to my place. He left. And we started to hangout everyday. Literally. Then we went to ted bundys house. Which is near where I live. When we got there the house was in the middle of nowhere in the mountains of Utah. It was cold and creepy. (If you don't know ted bundy was a serial killer. Killed over 100 people. He was killed my eclectic chair in the 80s) anyway what was left was the basement of the house which was the only thing left of the house and was where he would keep bodies sometimes. While we where standing there I got creeped out and was right next to ted and I sorta like put my bodies close to him and he put his arm around me.(super romantic lol) we left and still hung out all the time. Then this one day my brother and ted we going somewhere and Ching was fine with me going and then all the sudden he was like no you can't go. I was super bummed. I told ted good bye and then hugged him( I had pizza in my hand so I was sorta trying not to let him smell my garlic breath)(lol) so as you can imagine I was half hugging him. And he kissed my jawline... like I'm so happy confused turn on.(lol):D he ran literally ran down the stairs to leave 😂🙄🤷🏼‍♀️Afrer that always hanging out for about 5 days after then I moved. And we completely stopped talking I still live in the state just in a city down. Literally nothing. Then I was on vacation in Las Vegas and I screenshoted to shapchat chat. You guys know it let's you know someone screenshoted. So he is like "?" I say some thing like "~^.^~" so when we started talking again saying something like I wanna come down and see you. Then I said something on my sc story and it was song lyrics and I'll admit it was about him but literally it didn't say "to ted"or anything about him. And then he blocked me. I'm like great I fucked things up again. I was so upset. Then I had my sister text him.(I didn't want to say anything like as if it was me) and so I had my sis say something and said like basically why? Why did you block her? Stuff like that. And he said"I just wanted to be friends and like she took it too far," " I never liked that." But he literally kissed my jawline&held my hand (like the fuck) anyway around my birthday in July we started talking. Small talk. And then on my birthday he stopped talking to me. And about 3/4 weeks after ted did that, this girl who I had added about 4 months back and I had tried to say hey to (I do a lot of self promoting) and she never answered and or opened it. So I just forgot about her. And then about one week after ted stopped texting me I get this friend request on Facebook from someone imma call him X. So I say hey! To X and he opened it and said nothing. Nothing. I looked at his profile and he was creepy or I blocked him. Ok so here is where this girl came in I gonna call her A so A hadn't said a single thing to me. Then I get a hello and 2 pictures of ted I'm super confused and tell her who is that ?(trying to play it cool) she's like that's Ted. I'm like ? Ted who I know a lot of teds. She's like(imma just make something up) Z I'm like oh why? (Lololololo) shes like oh I thought you knew him.... THAT MAKES NO SENSE!🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄....just because I know him why the fuck ya know? It makes no sense. Plus I don't know her.TO BE CONTINUED